Korya-got to be Kidding Me

I'm so beeezeee! Or at least, I think I am. Haha. Ang bilis bilis bilis ng mga araw. 2016 just flew by. I'm currently in production mode and I feel I should be mixing everyday now since I'm joining more bazaars this year and I'm torn between making lots and lots of inventory so I'm ready for these bazaars and being scared of having leftover inventory if sales won't be as good as I expected it to be. But I think I'm going with being prepared- sayang ang opportunity 'no. Sabi nga ni Mareng Oprah,

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We don't want lost sales now, do we?

So anyway, here's an update of what I've been up to recently aside from working my ass off (even if people think I'm just lying on my bed all day).

First and foremost, I was denied a Korean visa. So that frakkin' countdown ekek has to go. I'm not sad. I am disappointed. We're still trying to see if we can appeal my case kasi sayang din yung 10K (5K for me and 5K for AC). I sort of know what I did wrong but I was just trying to be honest. So yuuh, I'm disappointed because all these time I thought I was going to spend my birthday in Seoul. I really thought it was easy to secure a Korean visa. Well, I was wrong. They don't want my money, eh di huwag. And even if after appealing eh I don't get a visa still, I WILL NEVER GO TO KOREA. Itaga niyo 'yan sa bato. Of course I can't give up my Korean drama fixation, haha.

Aside from that one heartache, everything's good. So my crystal bracelet addiction is still ongoing. Even after vowing that the citrine and ultimate protection bracelets were going to be my last purchase, I still purchased a garnet bracelet. So here's my stash now

Let me introduce you to my babies ☺
From top to bottom: Amazonite, Citrine, Fire Agate, Garnet
and Ultimate Protection bracelets

These were all from one supplier only. I didn't include the jades from AC, plus the not-so-effective rose quartz we got from another shop.

Last month, we went to this Thai restaurant in Marikina, daddy's treat ☺

HEAVEN! I love love love Thai food ♥♥♥ If Korea doesn't want my money, I'm going back to Thailand and drown myself in scrumptious authentic Thai cuisine. Ni hindi ko nga gusto masyado ang Korean food. Haha sorry ang ka-bitteran lumalabas. But gaaaahd, how I love pad thai and tom yum :-) Yum yum YUUUUUM!

And because I've been feeling sorry for myself because of the Korean visa ekek, medyo nagse-self pity ako and splurged a little on stuff and food. Haha. I mean, if I wasn't going there on my birthday, might as well enjoy my money. Ayaw niyo, pues leche kayo.

But of course I feel that God has a reason why I didn't get a visa. I may not understand it right now but eventually, I'll know why. Maybe instead of spending it on expensive Korean food and whatnots and accommodation, God said I should use the money instead on my business. Use travel money to buy more supplies, use the time to make more products. That's what I keep telling myself so next year when I go to Japan or the States (wow confident), I'll have more funds. Sorry Korea, you just got bumped off my bucket list.

I also got into Pokemon Go. I really didn't want to get into the bandwagon kasi nga busy ako diba and I never really got myself into the "in" stuff because I'm a rebel like that, uh-huh. Haha. But this cousin said she's going to my house so we can download the game and play while she's here. I downloaded the game. She didn't come. And before I knew it, I was hooked. Kiber nang bumalik sa Eastwood ng tatlong beses basta makahuli ng rare Pokemons. I don't know until when I'm going to keep up with this madness.

Signs

So lately I've been asking God, the universe for signs whether or not I should still go on with the nail spa and lately I've also been seeing more of these let go quotes, etc. But the internet, tumblr most especially is teeming with these so even if I feel they're God's answer to my question, I'm still asking for this one sign that I'm 100% sure is the sign I've been waiting for. 

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For now, albeit these signs speak to me (or maybe I just want them to mean what I want them to mean), I'm still waiting for this unmistakable sign whether to let go or hold on.

Hit-Or-Miss

Ganyan ang buhay ko ngayon. Not that it's bad but right now I am just taking things one day at a time. Well, it's how I've been living life since, umm, after I graduated from college? Haha. Bahala na si Batman. I'll do what I think I should do in this life- make a living, pay my bills, enjoy my time with family and friends, be happy. I've stopped taking things seriously when I've acknowledged that we can plan all we want but if things aren't meant to be, they will not happen and vice versa. Well yes, masyadong fatalistic but as I see it, it's pretty much what happens. I'm not saying I'll just wait for things to happen but I'll still put my best efforts in and in the event that it doesn't (or does) happen, then I'll have to understand that's just how the universe works.

So what's eating me these days? The same as to what was eating me 11 years ago- ze nail shop. Mantakin mo 11 years na pala siya at hanggang ngayon paikot pa rin ng funds. But to be fair, it was what paid for my Spanish language classes in IC. Anyway, after being evicted from original place of business, business has been slow that nail technicians stopped going to work (na walang pasabi!) and it's been a Herculean task to find new ones and equally difficult to make them stay. I tend to get easily affected by stuff happening around me so there was this one time I was venting out to my friend, C, how I couldn't get new nail techs and the good ones are leaving maybe because they want higher daily pay which I can't give but they won't take commission-based add-ons (because that means they'll have to work for it). C asked what do I get in return from all the stress the shop's been giving me, in other words- kumikita ba siya? I answered her, "None." Her advise was to let it go. And I've seriously considered doing so but I don't want to give up on it yet. I want a sign from God, from the universe. And recently I've been getting a lot of messages to let go like in that Facebook App where you get daily messages from "God" and from this article on Huffington Post.

Part of me really wants to give it up, let go. Part of me wants to give it one more try. Maybe it's my pride. Folding up would mean I lost the village spa wars- I wasn't the last one standing. Maybe it's also realizing there's so much potential in this business and it's actually my source of passive income (if there's any, haha) because I don't have to be there physically for me to earn. The business is heavily dependent on people with a specific skill which makes it difficult to find people who are good at it + honest + masipag + actually cares for the business. My cynicism has been actually brought about by people who have worked for me. Hindi na nga ako naaawa sa mga drama ng mahihirap. Haha. Maka-mahirap ako akala mo naman ang yaman ko, no? Ika nga ng kanta ni Jose Mari Chan, I've been hurt and I've been burned before. Maybe I'll give it until the end of the year.

To be honest, cuticle care hasn't been my passion. I rarely have my maniped done even if I own a nail spa. I'm also thinking that if I close the nail spa, I can focus all my time and manpower (my PA and I) on the scents biz, meaning joining bazaars more often.

Haaaay I don't know. As I've said, I'm just taking things one day at a time.

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Election day is on Monday already but I haven't decided yet on who to vote for as President. Definitely out na si Mar and Binay. Grace is it still my bet but I'm still considering Duterte and MDS. Si Duterte kasi although doer, napaka-unstatesmanlike. With MDS naman, I feel she's the most qualified for the position but alas, her health concerns concern me. A BBM vice-presidency is possible and if Miriam wins the election but loses her battle with cancer, then the country will have another Marcos as a president at hindi natin gusto yun. Hay, decisions, decisions...

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And oh, did I mention that we're finally going to Korea on September? Finally! I'm so so so excited ☺ I have to lose weight na talaga para hindi naman ako mukhang blob sa pictures. I'm so friggin' fat already. I'm doing a ClearStart colon cleanse right now and hopefully it works. It's been 12 days since I started and I'm still bloated (o baka taba lang talaga yun?). But hopefully this stuff works. 

So that's it pansit- ang mga ganap sa buhay ko. I'm writing another post on my recent new food finds ☺ and of course, ze gratitude list. Toodles XOXO

Wishing. Hoping. Praying.

If you've been reading my blog, I assume you've met Kendall. If not, this is Kendall...

Meet Kendall the Kindle
this taken during "better days"

Umm... let's just say that I dropped her ON. THE. FLOOR. and it sorta fell from a great height WITHOUT A CASE. So this is how she looks like right now~

Araaaaaay nakooooooo
kay sakit naman ng ginawa mo

Not only was my ereader broken, but my heart as well. I've grown pretty much attached to this gadget. I bring it me everywhere I go, for opportunity to catch up on my reading. I'm currently reading Exiled Queen when I dropped it and I'm almost at the end of the book kaya I couldn't put it down that I had to bring it with me even to the bathroom. Ayan. Disgrasya. Waaaah!!! I'm so sad :( And to think this happened only two days before my birthday. What a present. Buti pa sigurong hindi na muna ako nagbasa at itinabi ko muna siya, hindi pa sana siya nasira.

Now I kind of understand now the importance of putting Kendall (or any gadgets) in a protective case. Eh I'm so stingy and wouldn't spend one kiaw on a kindle case so after three years, my Kindle has gone au naturel. If I had not taken her out from that old, battered case, then maybe she'd still be fine now. Hay. Shoulda coulda woulda.

I'm going to let her be muna. I hope she comes back to her senses. I am not giving up. I actually tried opening the case and I think I hurt my nails and my fingers in the process but still to no avail. Ia-apply ko na lang ang motto ng true love dito- if you love someone, set her free... if she comes back, eh di bongga... if she doesn't, maybe it's time for a new Kindle Paperwhite. HINDI! UMAASA PA AKONG MAAAYOS SIYA. I'll give you space. You'll come back to me, I swear ☺ Gaahd, I'm such a schizo. Ayan kasi naghahanap ng maidadagdag sa birthday wishlist... leche. In the event that Kendall doesn't recover from her trauma, a new one will be my Christmas gift to myself. And a protective case. Linshak na yan.  

Inday's Day Out

So I was supposed to meet up with an online seller in Glorietta yesterday. I sent them a text message Monday morning, around 11am to ask if we could meet up Tuesday in Makati para aside from the meet up, I can do all the other errands I've been meaning to do but didn't because, well, procrastination. They replied, "text tom early morning." I assumed it was a 'go' as long as I text them early.

I was in Makati at 7:30 in the morning. MORNING! I woke up at four frickin' thirty so I could hitch a ride with AD going to Makati. I sent the supplier a little before 8am to confirm our meet up. Reply ba naman sa akin, "tomorrow na lang." ANO 'YON? WALA SIYA SA MOOD? BUKAS NA LANG?!? Well, I was also at fault because I assumed tuloy nung Tuesday. It just happens that they're the only supplier of this material I need so I'm putting up with the unprofessional conduct. So fine pumayag ako na 'tomorrow na lang.' We're supposed to meet today at 12nn in Megamall. I sent them a message asking for a confirmation if the meet up will push through because I'm only going to Megamall to pick up the material and pay them. I texted them twice. No reply.

Hay. Nakaka-high blood.

So anyway aside from the no-show supplier, I was able to do all the other stuff in my to-do list and some more... Eto ayaw ko na napapadpad ako sa Landmark eh. Tapos 10% off pa on all regular products. Presenting yesterday's stash

decorative tray

black crate
actually part of a set but may also be purchased individually

The black crate is part of a set. There are 4 boxes and I got the third biggest. I really want it in white but it's out of stock so I got just one in black. Their sale is until the end of the month and new stock in white will be coming so I will wait for those ☺

wooden something from Landmark and Pantone mug from SM

I guess to other people this isn't a splurge but to me it is. I don't need them, well maybe except for product pictorial props, but I didn't really need to buy them. I'm kuripot that way. Haha.

I avoided the grocery to avoid unneccesary purchases but I needed to buy toothpaste (and if I find the Scholl pedi thingy), I went to the toiletries section and ended up buying not just a tube of toothpaste

because they're on sale...

I've been eyeing the Bifesta for about a year already but didn't muster enough courage (until now) to shell out 400 to buy it. Haha sabi sayo kuripot ako eh. The St Ives Pink Lemon & Mandarin Orange Scrub I saw last month in Savemore but put off buying it as I still have lots of facial washes and scrubs but because it's 10% off, bumili na rin ako kahapon.

Ooooh, it's so pretty ☺ This is how the Bifesta bottle looks like when you peel off the plastic. I love muted pastel colors.

And since we're on the topic of facial washes and scrubs (and indirectly, hoarding na din), here are the facial wash and scrubs we've accumulated (wala pa jan ang mga facial bar soaps)

from L to R: St Ives Pink Lemon & Mandarin Orange Scrub, VMV id Skin-Buffing Cleansing Scrub, Nature
Republic Argan Foam Cleanser, Olay Thermal Mini-peel and Aveeno Clear Complexion Foaming Cleanser

L to R: ROC Resurfacing Facial Cleanser, Sebamed Liquid Face & Body Wash, Benzac Facial Scrub,
Maxipeel Exfoliant Scrub and Asian Secrets Lulur Whitening Facial Scrub

My favorites: Even if I just bought it yesterday, the St Ives Pink Lemon & Mandarin Orange Scrub is definitely one of my faves because of the scent (reminds me of  Neutrogena's Grapefruit facial wash) and I love the fine, grainy scrub texture (reminiscent of the other St Ives scrub, Green Tea), plus you could never go wrong with a St Ives facial wash and scrub ;) Another fave is the Benzac Facial Scrub whose scent I also love love love plus it's really effective against pimples and blackheads (ie. it doesn't make me break out). The downside of Benzac is it's a little pricey and I can't use it everyday ( just twice a week, tops!). The third runner-up is the ROC Max Resurfacing Facial Cleanser. I don't how much it costs cos it was AC who bought it. I also like the texture but not so much the scent. Its label says it's to be used prior your anti-aging soap/cleanser so the active anti-aging ingredient can penetrate your skin better.

I used to like the Olay Thermal Mini Peel; however, the warming effect, I think, has an effect on my skin. The dry areas (skin in between the chin and lower lip) and singit-singit sides of the nose, they darken on continued use of this scrub so I just use it occasionally. The VMV id Skin-Buffing Cleansing Scrub I bought last year as part of a set. Around this time last year, I had a bad case of pimples. mega-breakout galore! So I was desperate. I was sad and desperate which means I was easily cajoled into buying this beauty product. I followed the instructions to a T. They said the breakouts were going to worsen at first then improve eventually, with continued use of the kit. I used it for almost two months. I stopped using it when my complexion didn't improve.

The Sebamed  (bought here) and Aveeno Clear Complexion Foaming Cleanser (pasalubong from AB) were purchased I think last 2013 and 2012, respectively. Kaya sila tumagal ng hanggang 2015 kasi hindi ko masyado ginagamit- mga once a month pag nagsawa ako sa ginagamit ko. The Asian Secrets Lulur Whitening Facial Scrub I must have used just twice or thrice. I bought it last 2013, too.

Maxipeel Exfoliant Scrub was bought on impulse, wala lang. Haha. The Argan Foaming Cleanser was a birthday gift to AC. I love the scent but I noticed my skin gets oilier after using.

So there my boring chronicling of the facial wash and scrubs we have in our bathroom. I'm bored. And too tamad to do anything productive. Bleh.

I'm Giving Up On You

And that goes out to you, mi patria adorada. It's not that I don't love you anymore, it's just I am now disillusioned with what has become of you, my beloved country. Not all hope's lost. Maybe, just maybe we can still turn this around.

taken near NCCA. 9/6/2014.
on our way to pick up my birthday fudamchi

So what brought about this change of heart? Umm, siguro lahat ng nangyayari sa bansa plus my experiences as a dissatisfied citizen. I am not well-traveled; I've only been to two other countries- Thailand and Singapore, but why do I get the feeling that our government is doing its best to inconvenience us (that is in comparison with the two aforementioned countries). Ang Pilipinas ay isang malaking model ng broken windows theory.

Anong balita sa radio at TV?

Gan'un pa rin; kumakapa sa dilim

Minsay naisip ko nang umalis na lang dito

Limutin ang lahat, lumipad lumayo

We are a great country, no doubt about that, but  we are a country governed by a bunch of thieves and liars. Tingin ko sa gobyerno natin ay isang buwitre.

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This is a disturbing and sad picture of a vulture waiting for his prey, the child, to die and this is also a perfect depiction of our government vs. the people. Lecheng buwitre kayo.

You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine...

My birthday is only two weeks away, YAY!!! However, I am having these feeling of inadequacies again. Kuma-quarter life crisis lang uli. Dagdagan pa ng weight gain na bonggang-bongga and I'm definitely sulking my life away with a bag of White Cheddar Pop Corners and a Coke. It's a vicious cycle, y'all, and I am sucked right into it.

So anyway, this is an update of what I've been doing with my life which I tell you right now is not much. Haha! I started blogging nine years ago as some sort of therapy- writing down my feelings, getting it out of my system. I also journal old-school style with pen and paper but I wanted to post music, pictures and occasionally, videos, so that's why I made this. Pansin ko lang that most of my posts nowadays are about books that I've read, food I've eaten and mostly material stuff. In fair naman din mas marami akong personal life posts this 2014 as compared to last year. Okay, lezdodizzzz ☺

(+/-) Place of business already transferred here in the house. It has pros and cons but now mas feel ko ang cons. Sales has been lower than what's usual of August and I attribute that to the fact that we are not very accessible. It's like starting from scratch again wherein we had to do flyering and post tarps around the village. In fair I think I'd pay less for electricity. One of the cons I can see is our customers trying out the competitors' services first as they're much more visible and accessible. I just hope they'd still look for our brand of service. Our space is very limited now- no space for waxing and massages.

I hope eventually sales will go higher cos if the customers get used to coming here, we'll convert part of the garage into the nail care area so the upstairs aka my ex-lab will be the waxing and massage area. As of now, pakiramdaman muna. 

Another con I can see is that I am now again without a work space for my other business. The sink area is still where I'd work but then I will miss the luxury of having a big space to work in. This means working in the library or AB's room which also means I'd have to clean up my mess after every working day. Ako pa naman I leave my work space as it is, mess and all, becauSKse that means getting back on track in less time. Mahirap nang kumuha uli ng momentum, no? I guess I really have to start production early and be more systematic this time.

(+) Reunions. Started with my reunion with Lola X who's home for the weekend from Singapore. I think the last time I saw her was during our SG visit. Met up with her for some catching-up an also to get my stash- the SK-II and the pen I bought. Merienda at Red Mango na may bonus sighting pa ni Richard Poon at Arron Villafor. 

I lost the teal one she gave me two birthdays ago and I have grown so attached
to it that I want a replacement. I had her buy me a new one, same color sana but
they didn't have stock at that time, hence this green one.
Advanced bday gift ko na lang daw. Thanks, Lola! ☺ Ahlavet.

Before meeting with Lola X, I met first with my IC friends J & J. Lola X and I agreed to meeting at 3 in the afternoon and as I was already in Manila at 11:30, I sought after my IC friends who I haven't seen for quite some time. Lunch with J & J at Lido Cocina Tsina, J's treat. New stories regarding our friend's complex lovelife and other IC chismis. Nakita ko rin si Tonya Ferrer. Mas sosi na si Tonya kasi may posse na siya. Ick. 

Also met up with Dra. D for a "business proposition," aka a networking shizz. Kahit ano pa sabihin nila na hindi siya networking, there's still some semblance to one. Haven't seen Dra. D since college graduation, I think, and it's good to know that everything's still the same. It's good to know that some people stay humble and down-to-earth albeit their accomplishments. Emphasis on some kasi may some din na akala mo na kung sino... bago ka makarating sa inyo, kailangan ka muna dumating sa secretary niya. O ha! Tapak naman paminsan-minsan sa lupa, teh!

Most recent reunion with Lola J, Prinsesa ng Binondo. Had lunch at Wai Ying for the nth time and although I was disappointed with their hakaw, solve pa din. As usual, kwentuhan about life and love (or the lack thereof) at life and love ng ibang tao (ehem, Lola Juningning!). For the first time after downloading the 10,000 steps app, that was the only time I did move/walk 10,000 times. 

And now I am excited to be reunited with Lola Y! She's coming home this September and she's here on my birthday, yay! ☺ Haven't seen her for a year and a half already and I miss her so much already. Alam ko gusto niyang mag-Dubai pero mas gusto kong andito siya sa, haha. So excited for our meet and greet, hehe ☺

(-) At dahi na-open ko na ang topic na hakaw, I just want to share my dissatisfaction with Tim Ho Wan. Finally got to try this very-much-talked-about dim sum place last month. Umm... it was okay. Nothing special. Just liked their BBQ pork buns and all the other food were only so-so, in my opinion. 

Yummeh! 

Ha-kaw na!

So yesterday A and I ate at Tim Ho Wan and our bill was 1,500++ And there was just the two of us and we didn't even eat that much. Feeling ko na-hold up ako. Haha! I'd come back here only to eat bbq pork buns. For my hakaw fix, I'd go to Wai Ying instead. Sana nag-ramen na lang ako. Or Pollo Loco. Kahit chicken joy mas masaya pa ako. 

(+) General cleaning! Because most of my stuff from my ex-lab/office were brought back here in my room and the lib, I had to do major cleaning again. I have so many stuff that I don't know what to do with them anymore. I don't want to throw them away as I feel they're still of importance. I just need to devise a way how to keep and organize them with the limited space I have. 

So that's the before & after shots of my room. I'm still not completely done and that computer table looks clean and organized because I haven't returned all the stuff that goes in there yet. But I'm getting rid of the table soon. Will be using my old study table once it's already re-finished ☺

(+) Driving on SLEX and EDSA for the first time ☺

But of course, not without Nonoy. Sa ngayon, kailangan ko pa rin ang supervision (at naka-abang sa hand break) ng marunong na driver. Drove all the way to Alabang and back and for the first time, I hit 60 on the speedometer. Pagsasabihan ako ni daddy niyan but what can I do when the speed minimum limit is 60 kmph? 

Hmm.. more good than bad actually. Guess my bad luck is only in the mind. I should really keep a gratitude journal and update more regularly to remind me that I'm very blessed. 

[Post title from a Jason Mraz song]

When Life Gives You Lemons...

Anak ng pakshet. I feel so disoriented these days. Yes, this is me not very good at dealing with life's little detours and not-so-nice surprises. I know, I know... this too shall pass. But seriously, I am frakking stressed right now and I still so much like George W. Bush when he was told the WTC towers were hit by airplanes and I was already feeling like this, I think, two weeks ago and I still haven't moved on. Gah! This is so frustrating. I am so frustrated at myself for going things at the last minute. I swear ang bagal ko. Haven't had tarps done yet and they're, like, very important information-dissemination tools re: the move. I had flyers done already but guess what? The landline number I put there was wrong. Bravo. Pakshet talaga yang homeowner's association na 'yan. Haha ang passive-aggressive ko lang talaga. Shet ang schizo ko lang din.

Oh, Lisa, I hope the day comes I can say this too

Another thing that's making me so frustrated right now is my skin. Eh kasi nga vain ako kahit hindi halata. I noticed that my skin's acting up again and the dark patches are here again at mukha na akong dalmatian sa dami ng spots ko. And you know what they say, shopping ang outlet ng malungkot. Because I am frustrated with my fez, I splurged on skin products- I bought a skin care regimen set from VMV (which is actually a steal, mind you, cos if you get the set, it's like you get one product for free and no, I'm not saying this just because I am justifying my purchase) and I made Lola X buy me SK-II in Singapore. In fair naman to the facial scrub- Skin -buffing Cleansing Scrub- it is effective. I haven't used anything else (maybe except kojic acid soap occasionally) and my skin hasn't had any breakouts yet. I think hiyang ako dito (pwera usog) although medyo nag-dry nga yung mga dati nang problem areas ko. I'm on week 2 of this new regimen and hopefully, it will really work wonders on my complexion.

Okay, another thing I am super mega over frustrated about is the weight. Sabi ko lose 20 lbs. Not GAIN. As in WTF talaga. I know I gained 10 lbs which I blamed on medication and excessive food intake over the Christmas holiday pero ano'ng petsa na?!?!? Usually I lose the added poundage after a few months pero July na and instead of losing, I gained weight pa! But honestly, I think I was a little sluggish and inactive this year. So I think I won't be taking that guilt-free month-long break in January after my holiday high. Medyo mahirap kasi kunin ang momentum and since I already got the ball rolling over the holidays, might as well take advantage. Feel na feel ko na ang bigat ko. Argh.

I haven't ranted like this in a loooong time. I still feel bad after. Pwe.

permission to rant.

I haven't felt down in the dumps for a long time. Which I am thankful for. Actually, 2013 kind of was a sucky year but not really because although it was pretty okay in general, it lacked any significant highs. Well, maybe except for watching Linkin Park live and reading a lot of books. But this year feels different, feels blah-er than blah. This is what I get for checking my horoscope. Haha. Pigging out usually makes me feel better but after indulging myself in cheese pizza, soda, chicken and spaghetti and other supposedly "comfort foods," I still feel crappy inside. Maybe because I have gained considerable poundage- ten, to be exact. Here I am trying to lose ten, instead I gain it. FML. 

But then again it's just the start of the year. I should give it more chances to become more awesome or there are more chances for me to make it awesome. What to do to make my 2014 more exciting and more worthwhile? 

For now, I need Cyma pork chop to make me feel better. 

apparently...

If you're still talking about it, you're not over it yet. With which I beg to disagree. It could just mean I'm a nitpicker and I have this huge propensity to comment or critique people, objects, events, myself, etc. What can I say, I'm just a very observant person. Har dee har har.

So I saw pictures today from spending too much time on Facebook.

Comment on Photo #1: Someone does not look fresh today... nuninuninu...

Comment on Photo #2: For this, I will use a Mean Girls reference.

'you' also look like one

That's it.

I'm being hostile a lot lately and I think I have my hormones to blame and my meds. Damn you, Metformin. You know what's going to make me happy? Pizza. Stuffed-crust pizza.

DREAMS ON HOLD

I cringe when people tell me I'm masipag because I do not feel masipag AT ALL. I tend to procrastinate every friggin' time but I have an explanation for that- I work better under pressure. But you know, I really really wish I could be more industrious, more proactive and more productive everyday. I would never admit this to my parents and sisters, dito lang, that I rely too much on them. Some projects are on my own merits but I tend to always need their help. Yun nga, I wish I could be more proactive and not wait for things to fall on my lap. Juan Tamad ba lang ang peg. Not funny, IMHO.

So anyway, the weather this morning was verrry conducive to petiks mode. I was super tempted to just lie on my bed and finish the book which I am reading. Imagine, ang sarap ng ihip ng hangin at malamig kahit walang electric fan...

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this was my mood this morning

What got me out of bed was an early morning phone call from my sister. Buti na lang. I have A LOT of things I need to accomplish and it seems that I have my dreams on hold which is due to my fault din naman. Parang active lang ako once a year which is during the Christmas season. I need to do something para the whole year round na ang business at busy-ness.

WISH ME LUCK!!!
(na sipagin na ako. hihi. huhuhu...)

PS. UPDATE!! Note to self:

IF YOU WANT WAR, I'LL GIVE YOU WAR. NOT.

[because I am not stooping down to your level. I am better than that]

I think I might have posted anything about my employee woes a bazillion light years ago. I stopped venting about them here when I decided this is a platform mainly for things that make me happy but sometimes, also a venue to vent the occasional and inevitable and worth telling bad experiences and/or misadventures. I thought my shop and employee woes are too frequent to write here and it's actually been awhile since we've had major drama. That was when Jenetalia went on "leave."

Leave my arse. I had a hunch that this was not due to personal reasons as she had claimed and I was right- she worked for another spa. I knew she was only playing it safe. If her new spa does well, she'll stay there and won't come back. But if it doesn't, she'll haul her sorry ass back to me-which was what happened. But you see, the one-month leave became five months and I think I don't want to be treated like a doormat. I treated them well and never, ever, not even once, threw an expletive at them even if very much deserved it and this is what I get? Ingrates. Well, actually, I was thinking of still getting her but not now. In other words, she has to wait for my signal as to when she can come to work. Business was a little slow after the holidays and I don't think I can afford to keep four nail techs everyday. Anyway, what really made me blow my top was when she told this employee who only works on weekends that she'll take her place and that she has spoken to me about it already. HOGWASH. And that was when I decided that I am not letting her sorry ass into my shop again. Yes, maybe you are good at that skill you do but you have the worst case of attitude problem. I don't want anything to do with you anymore. You are not indispensable. No one is indispensable. How dare she threaten me that if I don't take her back she'll work for the other spa. Which she did. And after a week under her new employer, she sends me a text message asking me to take her back. She should have thought about her action first, no? I am no Taylor Swift fan but I am going to quote her on this- we are never ever getting back together. Good riddance.

But guess what- she is now contacting our customers- her customers daw. They are the shop's customers, by the way. I guess I can't please everybody and all customers who still want her, I can't do anything about. Time and again I say that I believe in karma.

You hear that, Jenetalia and your new employer?

What goes around comes around, people.

oh d-d-d-dear

In panic mode already.

I have a bazaar this coming Sunday and I don't have labels yet. And I really thought I started early na this year, hindi pa rin.

So I'm now super duper tired and I'm still flip-flopping whether to get this new printer (which, by the way, is more expensive than my suki. in case you didn't know, my suki's printing machine broke down when their building caught fire). Hope this is a blessing in disguise. So anyhoo, since I'm exhausted and I haven't had a decent shut eye and people around me are being super slow and emotera, I'm SUPER CRANKY today. All I'm asking for is a little initiative. Turns out common sense is not so common after all. ARGH.

{cranky pants}

Do not cross me. 

You have been warned. 

i say goodbye to life

Fun, food-filled life, that is. Went to a Chinese medicine doctor last Saturday and he told me what I already know (but he didn't). I thought I only have to avoid carbs and control my sweets intake. Turns out, it is so much worse than that. These are the stuff I should abstain from:

• eel, beef, chicken, pigeon, turkey, geese
• crabs, shrimps, lobsters
• eggs
• salty, spicy, hot & sour foods
• fried, greasy, grilled/barbecued dishes
• all kinds of sweets 
• liquor, cigarettes, coffee
• sleeping late at night
• strenuous activities, lifting heavy loads

Tragic, no? Almost all are my favorite foods, especially sour foods, grilled/barbecued food and sweets! 

ang reseta ko. authentic na authentic.

I am in treatment for 3 days where I have to drink this tea derived from boiled herbs and for three days I can't eat any of the above, but I still have this SG trip with my friends at month's end so I guess hindi ko pa itotodo na strict diet. Moderation is key. 

my stash. 

I'm not a tea drinker so it's a bit of torture for me to drink authentic (hindi milk tea :P) bitter hot tea. And I just found out today that my stash has insects in it. >oo< I didn't know but my help had to point it out to me this morning. Oh well. 

So there, changing my lifestyle already. Trying to sleep early na din, trying being the operative word. But actually all my conditions are caused by my weight problem so I guess I really have to lose weight for real. Life... 

nakakaloka

Hindi kinaya ng powers ko at talagang gusto ko siyang i-post. I guess he is not the only one afflicted with Subject-Verb Agreement Deficiency Syndrome. Masakit sa bangs! At wala pa akong bangs sa lagay na yan. Kaloka!!! Takte, nagkaroon siya ng 'confident.' Ano yun, yung feminine wash?  

Okay, fine... hindi naman perfect ang grammar ko at malamang marami akong grammatical errors sa blog na ito pero pare, hindi naman kasinglala nito. At least, I know my basic subject-verb agreements. I'm sad because even those who went to good schools still don't have their S+V agreements down pat. Pare, napaka-elementary ng is/are. Tragic.

me wants to throw a hissy fit

Habang tumatagal na ginagawa namin itong lunch-outs every Sunday parang mas lalong tinatamad ang mga tao. That's sad. I look forward pa naman to our Sunday lunch-outs. Sunday lunch-outs used to be pasyal day, too. Pero ngayon literal na lunch-out lang siya **sigh** Oh well. Today we had lunch at David's Tea House in Q Plaza. Blah. Though their Lemon Chicken's really good, malapit-lapit na sa Wai Ying.

I'm depressed because of the weather. I really hate rainy days. I hate gloomy skies. Whenever it's dark outside, I feel like crying. Sometimes I really want to get out of this house. Thankfully, my other sister lives in the next street, just a 5-minute walk away from ours. It is frustrating how nobody wants to take responsibility of anything here. I tried but it is frustrating when nobody helps you. Even my mom who's supposed to be the master mistress of the house apparently doesn't care about household matters anymore. I want to tell my mom that not because she's "retired" from work, she has to retire from caring about the state of her household. Sometimes I vent out to my elder sister when she comes home from work and I just end up being more annoyed because she gets all self-righteous. Kayo nga mag-manage ng household!!! If everyone would share in the management of this house then it wouldn't be a problem but it seems that nobody cares. Like several days ago we had visitors arrive and they'll be staying with us until they find an apartment to rent. I was away and I had no idea that we were having visitors. I went home for a while to get something tapos I checked on the room and to my dismay, they didn't tidy it up. The sheets weren't even changed. Mommy told V to supervise and I guess she did not. When I asked V if she had seen the room she said no but mommy checked it daw. So before the guests sleep on the dirty sheets, I asked V to help me change the beddings, the curtains,  move the kalat to the other room but when she was half-done with changing the beddings, she said she's going already because they have a movie to watch at 10pm- it's only 8:45. FML. Well, I told her she had to help me finish spiffy up the room pero diba??? Leche.

And oh, my computer has conked out on me. I was happy pa naman that I got it fixed for only P150 tapos sira pa rin pala. It's not powering ON anymore. And what's worse, I don't have the budget to buy a new one. But I will work on that. Pero diba??? Iniwan ako ng computer ko sa ere. Pagkatapos ng pinagsamahan namin? Iiwan niya ako ng wala man lang paalam? Boosit.

Omigosh September really sucked. Really hope October brings good news, good happenings, good stuff, good people, good opportunites... lahat ng good. Please please please pretty please!!! Because my life is sucking big time and I kinda need it to be awesome.

Anyway, I think I'll be fixing my room AGAIN tomorrow. I really hope I can have a workplace like this-

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 I want everything in its proper place. I want that broken glass table out of the house.

haven't ranted in a while

And while everyone is going back to work or school tomorrow, I will be on break tomorrow. Yay! And it's September SOON. Yay!

Anyway, I'm not in the best of moods right now. I'm annoyed with what's happening here at home- mercury retrograde na naman ba? It's just everything's crappy and everyone's sick. And why would our parents won't believe that we're keeping so much clutter? Hello naman bakit mo itatago ang stockings na mas matanda pa yata sa akin? Sentimental value? Not only that, we also have popcorn makers that don't pop corns, microwave oven that only serve as a storage bin, TV sets that doesn't have pictures only sounds and a bazillion other stuff that are just accumulating dust and mold and mildew. Bah. I read somewhere stuff like those attract negative energy. Kaya pala masyado maraming bad vibes dito. Hmp.

Another thing... I am not enjoying Marisa de los Santos' Belong to Me. Already halfway into the book and I am finding it hard to understand the book. Does one have to be a genius to get this book? Cos honestly, I'm having a hard time with it. But I'm going to get through with it, finish it. Why I paid P200++ for it. Haha. How jurips. Who knows the end will justify the means, so to speak.

Bye for now. I can't stand working on this PC with only 111 RAM free. The extra RAM I bought must have been dislodged or something. Dear PC, please don't conk out on me right now. We don't have budget for a new, spiffy unit just yet.

world is not fair

I'm watching 49 Days [Korean series. Kung sila may 100 Days, ako may 49 Days] and I can't help but feel so insecure because these girls are unjustifiably cute, their hair falls sits perfectly on their shoulders, have flawless complexion and are thin. All that I am not. Darn it. Oh well, my dad still thinks my hair is fine and I don't need to have it straightened; he just wants me to lose weight.

I badly need a haircut and a facial. The only thing I have regularly is a maniped. Had I known e di sana naging kuko na lang ako. J/K. Baka magkatotoo pa, maging patay na kuko pa ako sa next lifetime ko. Ika nga, be careful what you wish for cos you just might get it.

***God heard all my whining and gives me His message thru tumblr (cos I am tumblring and writing this post at the same time)***

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Okay, got the message.

Will stop whining now and will schedule for a haircut this weekend.

P.S. I want to make a 30 before 30 list of the the 30 things I need/want to accomplish before I turn 30. Number one will be lose weight.

fml

do i really want to be a domestic goddess?

after today, bigla akong napaisip. mahirap pala.

today, i cleaned the house, ironed clothes, washed the dishes, cooked rice and dory fish in sesame oil and oyster sauce. i swear sasabunin ko ng bonggang-bongga, kukulahin ko pa yung katulong namin pagbalik niya. kung babalik pa siya. kapal talaga ng fez ng mga críada na 'to. but it's also comforting to know that i can survive without a maid.

so that's how chongga looks like

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Wow, what a way to end the day! And that's a sarcastic wow, by the way. Though subconsciously, I was waiting for it to happen. I knew chongga wouldn't take this one sitting down. She is chongga after all. But after all is said and done even if we think that she still doesn't have the right to dictate to people where they can or cannot work, in the end I just don't want any fuss because of this situation. I'd rather live in peace, thank you. So let me.