Last night, I attended a wake a 13-year-old boy's wake. 

I think I can never know how to comfort those he left behind. I can only offer them my condolences, prayers and two boxes of donuts. 

I can say that it's okay because he's in a better place right now but we all know that it is not okay and it will never be okay. Most especially if it's a little boy who's only begun his life and who's got so much ahead of him, but then again I understand that all things happen for a reason. 

project 102: The Art of Getting By, LOL & Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen

I guess I am a prude. Correction- I'm a prude for certain.

I've recently seen two "teenybopper" movies and sadly, they're not how they used to be. I miss John Hughes. Actually, a friend told me that 80s movies were more grabe but I don't know if that comment was applicable to all movie genres or just to 80s bomba films, haha. Going back... it's just these days, they're kind of justifying the sexual promiscuity, drug use and alcoholism of teenagers- yes, teenagers! Kids as young as 13 are "experimenting," so to speak. It's just that in the 80s or 90s, sexual promiscuity, drug use and alcoholism wasn't the norm or at least kids don't wear it like a badge as kids nowadays do.

The Art of Getting By

A high school kid in a hurry to go out of high school and I don't really remember if he wants to get into university or he just wants to get out of school in general. George (Freddie Highmore) is graduating soon but his teachers & principal will not allow him to do so if he doesn't study his lessons, submit his projects and assignments. He meets Sally (Emma Roberts) and suddenly he's filled with his newfound joie de vivre, only Sally isn't your girl-next-door type kind of heroine that's typical of John Hughes films. Actually, she is trouble. Sally breaks his heart and he spirals back to his old apathetic self. Then he suddenly finds out about the hardships of his mother which made him decide to do what is required of him to graduate from high school.

So is it just me or this kid is self-centered? Everything's not about YOU and at least do things because you need to not for anyone else but yourself. Life is hard as it is, do not make it harder for others. I remember reading this YA book showing the different facets of a person's life. It was an interesting read because you'd get to understand the person better and why they're such. So I don't know if what are George's issues are but if I were to judge it by face value, it seems that he's just disinterested with life in general.

Laughing Out Loud (LOL)

Lola, Lol for short, is one of the most popular girls in her high school. This is a story about 15-year-olds who are into sexual promiscuity, drug use and alcoholism. Does this mean that society equates "coolness" with doing the abovementioned?

Personally, I find it unsettling that kids nowadays have a different set of values. We keep hearing our parents and our grandparents saying that back in the days, things were different, kids were more respectful, etc. Does this mean that every generation gets worse in time? Or are we just more open to things now? It's just that if I were a parent, siguro hindi na ako makakatulog sa kakaisip kung saan ang anak ko at anong ginagawa niya. I remember a batchmate telling me that sometimes her boyfriend sleeps over in their house and I was like, "and your mom's okay with it?" in my mind. I know, I know, it's very judgmental of me but I feel like we're instilling the wrong set of values in our youth these days. If I do that and my nephew sees it, he'll think it is okay. Monkey see, monkey do.

Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen

Lindsay Lohan circa sanity. I liked Lindsay Lohan. She could have been great. Looking at the girls from Mean Girls, napagiwanan na siya nang bonggang bongga ni Rachel McAdams at Amanda Seyfried. Anyway...

Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen is not exactly my cup of tea. Yes I love teenybopper films but I prefer those of the rom-com kind than this with kakikayan, so the first time I watched this I didn't really like it. I watched it again yesterday when it was on TV and it wasn't that bad naman pala. In fairness, medyo na enjoy ko siya. You see, I miss this kind of teenybopper movies.

I think kids nowadays are in such a hurry to grow up. Please don't. You go through childhood only once and once you miss it, it's gone forever. Puede ka naman mag-asal teenager when you're, say, 30... but then that is not cute anymore; actually, may term jan- nagmumurang kamatis haha. Eh basta, they're taking life too seriously at such a young age, IMHO.

O diba, I'm a prude :P

mid-month review

I'm having a superb 2012 so far. I hope know things will just keep on getting better.

♥ AD's good news. She's only on her 1st month and things aren't official just yet because at this point it is just a gestational sac, but I'm happy for this good news ☺ I hope and I pray that this is finally it. She's taking precautions (ie. she's not driving anymore. wala na akong driver. haha) to avoid the unwanted but of course my take on these things, if it's meant to happen, it will happen. Sometimes you can't understand the world, there are girls who get pregnant but get rid of the babies and there are women who would do anything to have one. Anyway, I really am hoping for the best here. I want a girl ♥

♥ Hart of Dixie new episodes. Ang babaw ba? But seriously, I am loving this so so so much. After a month of waiting, it is finally back. And oh, we're only one month away from June- the new season of Awkward.

♥ Mini-reunions with college blockmates. Who cares if I got lost walking around Fort/BGC while looking for 20th Avenue? Dahil sa pagka-stingy and for the want to kill time, I walked from F1 Hotel (where I made a delivery) going to Ice's building. So feeling ko ang galing-galing ko while walking around Fort while taking directions from the gps map on my handy dandy cellphone. I've hit a dead-end construction site, McKinley Road and other wrong turns. When I decided to just take a cab, pahirapan na makakuha. So I checked again Ice's text message to me- apparently, her building wasn't at 20th Ave, it's on 30th. FML.

Eventually, I made it to her building. Alleluia! I waited some more (may sagot nako sa mga tanong na 'if ever gagawing movie/book about your life, anong title? The Waiting. Bagay sobra) and then we walked some more going to BHS. Dinner at Clawdaddy. Hindi solb. First of all, we are from the seafood capital of the country and my dad brings home shrimps, crabs and a whola lotta seafood every month so I think it is preposterous to pay such amount of money on a measly serving of shrimps :( But then again, the company was good. I had fun catching up with friends and for a change, walang hirit sakin si Kitty Cruz. LOL. 

♥ Trying out three new restaurants- Clawdaddy, Hermanos Tacos and 4 Fingers. As mentioned earlier, medyo feeling ko narip-off ako kasi hindi na busog, hindi pa masarap. 4 Fingers is very similar to Bon Chon. It's okay but Bon Chon is still the best double-friend chicken in town. AD likes Chicken Charlie but my heart still belongs to Bon Chon. Hermanos Tacos is to die for! I love love love their beef taco and rolled taco. Medyo masungit lang si ateng kahera na mapula ang lipstick and bummer that you'd have to pay for extra salsa. I will go back to try their quesadilla :) 

♥ Having AB's room all to ourselves! Idol has left the building. I repeat- Idol has left the building. So ngayon mas relaxed na because we don't have to share our floor with other people (esp. people who don't know how to show appreciation for ALL the help extended them) and mas guilt-free ang aircon-ing. Woohoo! 

♥ Free gelish trial ☺ Seriously, I want this service on my menu but it costs a kagillion. Before I was contemplating on getting a new laptop because endangered species na ang desktop ko but now I am thinking of getting the gelish package instead of the new laptop. Whatchatink? 

Could it be that I am having so much fun that time is ridiculously fast these days? Now I can understand Kylie cos I'm spinning around, move out of my way!

it's movietime for me! yay!

Little by little does the trick.

Finally had my mini-movie marathon yesterday. I was supposed to go to this training/product trial but as I was nursing an upset stomach, I asked for it to be rescheduled. At home with stomach flu (TMI, IKR? LOL) plus it was a rest day for the shop, I have every excuse in the world to lie down on my bed and devour one movie after another.

One For The Money

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Another sign that I am old- Katherine Heigl. I remember seeing a 14-year-old Heigl on My Father, the Hero with Gerard Depardieu which was eons ago, and now here she is with grown-up roles, battling the woes of thirty-somethings.

Being a book-to-film adaptation, a chick-lit at that, I was expecting a romcom. I wasn't really disappointed when she didn't end up with either of Joe Morelli or the Ranger, it's just that I felt that aspect of the story was a little hilaw. Oo nga naman, girl power nga pala ang theme dito- I don't need a man to make it happen baga.

It was a fun watch and I liked it even if I wasn't paying 100% attention to it.

Keeping the Faith

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This was released only in 2001 but watching it felt it was in the 90s because of the video resolution. Well, this was before the heyday of high definition shiznit and I feel so old because 2001 is 11 eleven years ago and I was 19 at that time. You do the math.

Keeping the Faith is a cute love story. It started with three young friends, Jake, Brian and Anna. Anna moved, leaving Jake and Brian in New York City. The two boys remained the best of friends albeit belonging to two different religions- Jake became a Jewish rabbi and Brian a Catholic priest. Fast forward to the future, Anna returns to New York and reunites with her boy best friends. Only this time, Brian and Jake are both harboring romantic feelings for her.

My thoughts: Obviously, Jake has the upper hand in this situation because rabbis can have wives, whereas Catholic priests cannot. I am not aware of Jewish customs, but Jake's dilemma is easier than that of Brian's. Of course it was heartbreaking on the part of Brian but it was the path he took. It was a good thing that Anna fell in love with Jake and not with Brian because otherwise, it would be a different, much more complicated scenario.

It was a nice, feel-good movie.

Jeux d'enfants

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I am not sure if it was my high expectations for this movie or if there were just some things lost in translation, but I didn't enjoy this as much.

My niece gave me a copy of this French movie and she highly recommended that I watch it and she said that it's better than Flipped. The thing is I loooooved Flipped meaning it should be so good to be considered better than Flipped. I guess it was just my expectations and some things lost in translation, that is why I didn't get the optimal enjoyment from this film.

My thoughts: It is an annoying, weird love story. Julien and Sophie were obviously not bringing out the best in each other and what they have wasn't healthy anymore. Okay, given na that this is just a movie but I just didn't find their dares cute. There wouldn't be a problem if other people didn't get harmed or hassled because of their games but their little 'dares' are hurting and hassling other people and for this reason, it is not what I can consider as fun and cute. They have a world of their own in which they don't care about other people; in other words, autistic sila!!! ANNOYING.

And seriously, I do not believe that 7, 8 or 9-year-old kids already have the concept of 'love.' Sorry naman if it's too pessimistic of me but I just don't and can't believe it.

not all hope is lost

Honestly, I think I've sworn love off and I honestly feel I am bound to be single forever. Do not get me wrong because I still want it to happen- to get married, have kids, the whole nine yards! I still dream of being a shopping housewife/landlady of leisure. But I am just preparing myself for the worst case scenario. At least, I won't get too depressed when what I really want doesn't happen, diba?

Almost 30, I am thisclose to believing I will never find love (kahit in a hopeless place, LOL) But today, I saw this on tumblr

SABI MO YAN HA!!!

Haha.

But for now, I am very happy with my family, my nephews and my businesses. Grateful ♥

boys over flowers

I tried watching Boys Over Flowers 3 years ago but because I had to download it every week with 700MB per episode, I stopped. And this 2012, thanks to my rekindled crush on Lee Min Ho (dahil sa City Hunter) and newfound liking on Kim Hyunjoong (this I blame on We Got Married) and borrowed DVDs from Jing, I finally got to watch the series over the long vacation.

I still love Meteor Garden and if it were not for it I wouldn't even get into this East Asian entertainment scene, but I've got to say the boys of Boys Over Flowers are waaay cuter.

Pero in fernez to the boys of Meteor Garden, mas 'natural' ang beauty nila. And we thought metrosexual na ang MG boys with their long hair; apparently, the BoF boys took metrosexual to a whole new level. But that didn't deter me from LOVING them. I loooove it when they cross their legs- it is actually a fetish of mine. Walang basagan ng trip, okay?

Omigosh, supermegaover kilig to death ako with this series. I am not really sure if I feel that Lee Min Ho acts better than Jerry Yan kasi parang mas 'real' yung love niya for Jan Di. But then again I've seen MG years ago and maybe comparing the 2 versions is unfair for both. But I feel that one cannot help but compare, ya? I also tried to watch the Japanese version, Hana Yori Dango, and nope... there's no one cute enough to make me go through the entire series. #waley

I really should stop watching movies and series like this one because it is giving me false hopes- false hopes that someone out there will love that much and false hopes that I will love someone that much. I do get my kilig fix from these romantic comedy shiznits and after experiencing kilig from the third person point of view, you'd also want something similar to happen to you. Who wouldn't want a tall, frickin handsome boy to fawn all over you and do everything to be with you?

Then again, do these things in the movies happen in real life?

I thought so.

But whatever, I still crush Lee Min Ho and I need to get my hands on a copy (with good subtitles) of City Hunter. That boy is gorgeous, I tell you.

the waiting

finally pays off...

FYI- NOT MINE

Positive for AD and BIL. After almost three years, they finally hit the reproductive jackpot! Siempre mahadera ako kaya sumama talaga sa OB niya. She's only 4 weeks and 4 days into her pregnancy so technically it's not yet official-official. We need to hear the baby's heartbeat to make it super sure but I think that would be on the 2nd month pa. If before we've been praying for this to happen, now we should pray even harder for a heartbeat on the 2nd month and for an easy pregnancy for sister dear.

I am excited. Although this is already the third niece/nephew, I am still over the moon for having another one. The Diaz brood is getting larger! I hope AD is having a girl ☺

Thank You Lord so so so much! Blessings after blessings after blessings... Just keep 'em coming, Lord. Thank You ♥

counting my blessings

I really have so much to be thankful for. I may not have everything I want but I've got everything I need. Of course it doesn't hurt to want a little more; doing so motivates us to aim higher, work harder.

Today I just made one of my major deliveries and I know there are more to come. Walang kokontra, positive vibes lang tayo dito. I hope this is just the beginning and I promise that I will give back.

Summer's officially here. I say officially because it's frickin' scorching in the daytime and still warm and humid at night. Anyway, I hope I could get back into shape soon kasi feel ko magganito

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NOT! But I swear the universe knows how I'm dying to be this skinny again. Sheet, I should seriously completely obliterate sugar (ie. COKE, mocha frap and 3-in-1 brown coffee) and must zumba to death if I want to lose 30 before 30. Pressure. But then again the extra weight means I have more than enough which unfortunately is converted into fat (but you see I also have my hormones to blame for the excess weight. excuses. ha!)

THANK YOU, LORD!