OMG It's Been a Year

Naiinis ako na I haven't been journaling as much. I really want to, hindi lang talaga kinakaya ng aking katawang lupa bilang wala na ako ulit minions. Of course having assistants make life much easier, but I have to admit I am liking the peace and quiet. But then again, I'd rather have someone who will help me with business stuff. Well I guess when the stars align, makakahanap din ako ng magaling na minion. 

Just a quick update with what happened these past 12 months...

Nawalan ng Minions, Nakahanap Ulit, Nagbakasyon Tapos Hindi Bumalik

As aforementioned, both of my assistants left. I know only one was coming back. I was sort of confident she'd be coming back. Tapos ayun tumawag. Mag-aaral daw siya ulit. Well, who am I to tell her to not pursue her studies- good for her, actually. Not good for me, but I know I can manage. Just right before Christmas, a former minion contacted me. Thank God that I found help just right before the busiest days. After the holidays, she asked permission if she could go home to Sorsogon to celebrate her son's 2nd birthday. Ayun siempre confident na naman ako na babalik siya. At first she was answering my messages, coordinating with me as to when she'll come back; then suddenly, no more replies. Na-ghost ako bish! Anyway, kinakaya ko naman. There are people who have been helping me- THANK GOD! 

My takeaway from this- I shouldn't take things personal. Before, when employees leave, I feel bad and take it personal. But now I realize na gamitan lang 'to. Hahaha! So I guess I'll contact her when I need help again, but for now I can manage by myself. 

Korea 2025

I celebrated my 42nd in Seoul ♥ I enjoyed it. There were some things I wished we had done differently, but meh, okay na rin. I can always go back, I guess. We were with Ate's officemate and officemate's niece. I did enjoy their company. It was fun. I just missed taking the train and checking out the city by foot. I mean, you see more of the place if you walk around. Bish, wala akong nakitang poster/ad ni Byeon Wooseok! I think we were to blame na rin bilang wala kaming plano. Also, I should have pushed for Suwon. Siguro kung nakita ko lang yung gate ng bahay ni Sunjae at nakapag-Cafe Mongted ako, I would have felt accomplished hahaha. Anubeh. But yeah, that's how I felt. Most especially during our last day. We could have done more than wait on our companions. And now I want to go back!! While Byeon Wooseok's ads are still aplenty!

rainy day in Bukchon Hanok village 

We meet again, Granhand :) 

I like their clean aesthetic

lunch. not very Korean, imho lol

Hongdae ata

dinner

Gamaksan suspension bridge

Imjingak

bullet-riddled train in Imjingak

frog in Imjingak

DMZ nga

that's North Korea across the river

LDR kami ni BWS

Kim Hyeyoon ad

ayan, LDR kami ulit

view of the Seoul Tower from our hostel

art biennale in Gwangju (JHOPE!!)

an art installation in the Gwangju Biennale

but of course, Compose Coffee

yes magsusugar ako para sayo, bhie LOL

to the mothership

BTS was on break- military service eme

Seoul nightscape

Seoul Tower

We were able to go to a lot of places naman, but I feel I could have seen more had we taken the train. Ang pagta-taxi ay sana pag-uwi na sa gabi pag sobrang borlogs na. 

Takeaway from this experience- MAG-PLANO! Plus if traveling with other people, we should make our own itinerary tapos assemble na lang after kanya-kanyang gala at nighttime or late afternoon for dinner, because sayang ang oras. 

High School Homecoming Chenes

It's been 25 years since I graduated from high school. 25 YEARS! Um, it was one event I honestly could have foregone- kung hindi lang ako nahiya because I was supposedly a part of the committee, pero sa totoo lang hindi kasi wala naman talaga akong ginawa. Bish, kinunan lang naman ako ng kidney. I guess I have a valid excuse for not being bibo with the preparations etc.

I enjoyed high school. I'm grateful for the friendships I started since then. Only a few have remained solid- mga 2 lang hahaha! But still I am grateful that high school for me was a pleasant experience, that I was not traumatized in any way. I was surprised to learn that a lot didn't want to attend because they didn't like HS because of the bullies, a few power-tripping teachers at kung ano pang ibang rason. 

My takeaway from this event- people don't really grow up. After 25 years, people are still the same. Siguro a few nagkakaroon ng realization at character development, but most, sadly, are still the same. Lalo na yung feeling nila cool sila. Haha. No. Mukha kayong tanga na feeling niyo ang cool niyo. Anyway, I don't think I'll be attending a reunion again anytime soon. The whole time I was just with my BFF who I meet every now and then naman. 

Capiz Vacation

Last January, we went back to the province for Uncle Er's 55th sacerdotal anniversary. I had fun because I think we were a bit more prepared- we booked a nice airbnb, Dad's friend lent us his van and AD was there to drive it (in other words, we were able to move around freely). 

Since we were already there, we also attended a family reunion in my Dad's side. Okay naman. Also, I don't get the logic of family reunions when you tend to stick lang din with relatives you already know. 

Malapit na kaming umalis. Will end this update now. BRB. 

Love Love Lovely Runner

It's been a while since Lovely Runner's last episode and I have still not moved on from that beauty of a drama. I tell you my attachment to that drama is on another level because it served as my comfort drama while I was counting the days before I come home. Lovely Runner would end on the same day I came back in the country- dito ko na napanuod the final episode. 

I wasn't really expecting that much from this drama. AC and I started watching Lovely Runner  right after we were done watching Wedding Impossible, which was one helluva disappointment of a drama. That kdrama was hard to watch. I am actually shocked that I did finish watching it- maybe I was somewhat hoping for the drama's redemption towards the end, eh waley. I did finish it largely because of the male lead (ML). Anyway, back to LR. I think I did enjoy episode 1, but the clincher was episode 2's ending. Absolutely didn't see that one coming and I was delighted and surprised. 

I rate this kdrama 100/10. I like it that much. Dramas usually start strong but come mid episodes, it slightly gets boring then either picks up or totally bombs towards the end. BUT THIS DRAMA DOESN'T HAVE ANY OF THAT. IT WAS SO GOOD THROUGH AND THROUGH. After watching the end of episode 2, I thought that I need to rewatch episode 1. I must rewatch episode 1 and 2 before next week's episode 3 and 4.  Ah basta I was hooked. 

The story was really good. SO GOOD. Of course I also have some questions, but with these dramas I practice suspension of disbelief. Plus, it's a fantasy drama. Everything is possible. 

Another contributing factor to LR's beauty is the chemistry between the ML and female lead (FL). Tapos nagre-release pa sila ng behind-the-scenes right after, OMG I totally am shipping these two IRL. Before, I couldn't get CLOY's fans who wanted Son Ye-jin and Hyun Bin to end up together, but now I totally get it. I want them to end up together for realzzzzz. Cos if not, why does Byeon Woo-seok stare at Kim Hye-yoon like that?? WHY? If he isn't crushing on her for real, looking at her like that should be illegal. Honestly, I hope he's not paasa. If ever they are dating, I think they wouldn't admit it cos the drama's done and doing so might affect their future projects. Meydo different case with the CLOY couple because those two were actually of marrying age or at least I feel they're in that age where they want to marry and start a family. HY and WS, I feel, still have a lot going for them and cannot be tied to a love team. ALTHOUGH I DO WANT THEM TO MAKE A REMAKE OF GOONG. The leads' chemistry, I tell you, is off the charts. It's been a while since I've kicked the air because of kilig and I've been kicking the air every episode. This has got to be my favorite drama of 2024 and definitely one of my faves of all time. 

Walang itatapon dito sa drama na 'to. Even the OST is good. Just listening to the songs remind you of specific scenes. I remember when I was still in NY and I guess just finished watching episode 2, I had I Think I Did on repeat for hours. The last time I did that was with John Legend's Everybody Knows. Every song in that soundtrack is just lovely, plus the original songs performed by the fictional band, Eclipse- perfection ;) WS's vocals were also a surprise. I am so in love with both his speaking and singing voice. Too bad I wasn't able to secure a ticket to his fan meet :( Funny how I previously thought that fan meets are a waste of one's money cos fan meets usually last for an hour (?) tapos same price as concert tickets? Well, I still do think fan meets are a waste of money but I was willing to waste my money just to see WS in person and hear him sing Sonaki live. Tapos kinanta niya pa I Think I Did! So I'm sad that I didn't get tickets to his fan meet. Boohoo. Dagdag na lang natin sa aking SK budget this September. 

Kim Hye-yoon was a discovery for me. I actually watched Extraordinary You last year but didn't get to finish it because I didn't like the story that much. Watched it because of Rowoon though, LOL. Naumay siguro ako with HY's too much aegyo, I dunno. But here in LR, for me, mas litaw yung acting prowess niya. And the boys said that it was her who helped them get into their characters. I feel bad that she isn't getting that much attention. I love WS but he has overshadowed our dear HY. Sabi naman ng ate ko expected naman kasi who watches romcoms/kdramas? Women, mostly. So it's just expected that the MLs would get more attention. Don't we all want our own Sunjaes, yes? I just hope that HY also gets the recognition due her. Sana bumaha din ng scripts for future projects for her. 

Back to the drama... it is a romcom but when you think about it, it's actually a sad kdrama most of the time. How many times did we see Sunjae die? It was heart-wrenching every time Im Sol would deny her feelings and hurt Sunjae because she thought that would stop him from dying. And it was also agonizing for our dear Sol to erase herself from Sunjae's life- and to live for 15 years doing that on purpose. And that is why we need that one hour of fluff for the ending. I am happy with that ending. I hope they also get that ending in real life. With each other. Please. Hihi. 

Love love love this drama to death. I do hope I get to watch another one like this this year. I also hope I get to watch more good projects from these two actors, whether individually or together (but I really hope they do work on another project together... Goong remake please. Or Full House. Please). 

So let's finish this post now so I have enough time to lurk in Twitter and get into the subeom vortex before I go to sleep. Good night! 

Back to Life.

 Back to reality. 

After almost five months, I'm back in the Philippines. Honestly, it didn't feel that long. I did miss everyone here, most especially my Mom and Dad, my sisters, my friends, my everyday life, but I think I also enjoyed my time there. It wasn't the best and most comfortable of situations- I was living in my sister's living room. However, I was able to visit a lot of places, do a lot of things, see beautiful sights, meet relatives and also a few new people. 

While I was there I couldn't wait to get back home- counting the days until I'm finally sleeping on my own bed; I didn't expect to feel this overwhelming feeling. I don't even know from where it's coming from. Five months ago, I felt this when I had to go to New York for my sister's kidney transplant and now I'm back, I'm experiencing it all over again. 

I just want to get this off my chest. 

Anyway, I have so many kwento I want to blog about but will be doing that another time. I wish I really can do this religiously cos this is my depository of memories. Memories that could have otherwise been forgotten, I do get reminded when I past posts. So, late man ang new year resolution ko for 2024- it will be simply to update this blog more often. Wala ako sa wisyo this year to want or do something career-wise or anything related with being a proper adult. 

I'm in Love ♥♥♥

Breaking my blogging hiatus just to say that I AM IN LOVE WITH LOVELY RUNNER! This series has got me squeeing and swooning the entire duration of the drama and even after (much much after) that. I am just waiting for the final two episodes but MAAAAN! I AM SO OVER THE MOON with this show ♥♥♥ 

source: i.mydramalist.com

Kdrama Recreation Therapy: First Half of 2023

I remember complaining that January 2023 felt so loooong, and now here we are done with June and the first half of the year. Things are better compared to the first half of the year but not exactly good. I'm still surprised and confused as to why we don't have benta. As in. Is it us? Is it the market? Is it the economy? I'm almost convinced that it is the economy but when I was in SM North last June 28, I think it's just me. Maybe I've been watching too much Kdrama kaya I didn't get much work done? Or, maybe I don't have enough orders that's why I have too much time to watch Kdramas? I think it's a tie.

Anyway, kung Kdrama lang ang pag-uusapan, I think I've watched a lot this year compared to last year. As of date, I have seen 

The Glory 1 & 2

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I liked it. Medyo heavy lang most especially that it's my first Kdrama for 2023 and I guess it sort of set the tone for the year. I won't comment on the actors' acting cos I'm not an expert on that pero I guess okay naman, except I feel there were scenes where Lim Ji-yeon was OA. 

What's shocking about this drama is that it was based on real cases. Terrible. How can people be so mean? Hindi lang mean- THEY ARE EVIL. And to think these were done by teenagers? What's the world coming to? Baka kaya sobrang init na ngayon- this is literally HELL on Earth. Half charot. 

What I also realized from this drama is that I am old. Song Hye-kyo doesn't look a day over 40 (over 30, even!) pero I remember vividly watching her in Full House which was shown 19 years ago. Has it been that long already? Just wasting my life away watching Kdramas, reading webtoons and drinking iced coffee? Although, they say that time you enjoy wasting is not wasted at all.

I get why Dong-eun wanted revenge. Pero parang hindi ba nakakapagod that your entire life has revolved around it? At least successful siya diba? Albeit successful, I don't think she felt good after. Vindicated, yes. But, happy that she's finally gets the justice she thinks she deserve for being maltreated- feeling ko hindi. This is where Lee Do-hyun's characters comes in handy. Or his mother, actually. Cos if it weren't for them, she might have ended her life after exacting her revenge.  

I liked the ending. It's not happy-happy, but it's real. Although I wanted sana a friendship between Dong-eun and Hyun-nam. And if it were me, I would have chosen Ha Do-young over Yeo-jung, hahaha! Pero that's just me kasi ang pogi. LOL. 

Anyway, where does Dong-eun get all that money? 

Misaeng

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I liked it. I just found it a bit slow-paced. 

I started watching a few Kdramas this year thinking they were comedies/romcoms and this is one of them. May comedy naman but the overall feel of this drama is sad. Definitely not feel good, which what I was looking for when I started watching it. This drama sort of depicts real life- it's not what you know, it is who you know pa din. You can be very hardworking pero kung hindi ka bet ng boss mo, waley. 

I felt bad for Jang Geu-rae's character at first but I feel he's actually lucky. He may have had it hard at first, but in spite of the odds being against him he still was able to get in One International, he had a boss that supported him and he had colleagues who helped whenever he needed help. I love Jang Geu-rae. I wish I had Jang Geu-rae's willpower. I'm so happy that good things happened to him. It wasn't all roses, but still he got to work in a big, stable corporation and he had good people around him. So ayun, swerte siya. 

My favorite character aside from Jang Geu-rae was Oh Sang-sik. I loved how he supported Jang Geu-rae even if at first, he was also skeptical about him. He saw Jang Geu-rae's potential and that he just needed guidance to be able to do a good job. Minsan mas maigi pa na hindi gaano kagalingan pero willing to get one's hand dirty compared to someone who thinks he's too good to do mundane tasks like Baek-ki for example. I felt sad for him that even if he was good at his job, he still wasn't promoted because he wouldn't kiss ass. I felt bad for him that he had to sacrifice quality time with his family for a job that didn't value his worth. 

So ayun, my key takeaway from this drama is life is not fair. 

Crash Course in Romance

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The first half was entertaining bilang I am a fan of bickering leads who eventually end up together ;) But the second half of the drama I found boring.

I cannot fathom why these mothers/parents subject their children to too much academic pressure. Aside from school, they have academies pa after until around 10 in the evening. Kung may work-life balance for the adults, kids should also have school work - life balance. Plus, kids are meant to enjoy their youth. How can they when they're too caught up with their studies? Good grades and getting into good schools are important but aren't our kids' mental health and happiness more important? Ayun lang. Ang OA lang na wala silang ginawa kung hindi mag-aral. And the lengths their parents would go through. At hindi pa ako nakapanuod ng Sky Castle sa lagay na yan ha. 

Love to Hate You

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Fun romcom plus it's only ten episodes! 

My Liberation Notes

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Opened this draft today- August 24- and now I barely remember anything except that I liked this drama. It's sad but I loved it. It has a happy ending though which was one of the factors why I liked it. Also, how to have Mi-jung's boldness? Hahaha! I have a person in mind na gusto kong sabihan nang "worship me and make me feel whole" emeruts. Actually, I feel whole naman. I just want someone to worship me. Hahahaha!

Call It Love

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Another sad drama. Usually talaga I steer clear of sad dramas cos kdramas are supposed to be my escape, but I don't know with 2023- halos puro sad/heavy yung themes ng pinanuod ko. 

I liked Call it Love although all throughout the drama, I felt that Woo-joo's misery was self-imposed. She and her siblings, with their mother, could have moved on with their lives... I know easier said than done. Bwiset naman talaga yung tatay nila (plus the querida), pero mas lalong nagwagi si querida kung naging masalimuot yung buhay nila, diba? I sort of understand Han Dong-jin's misery though- ganun ba naman nanay mo tapos wala ka pang kapatid. Woo-joo and Dong-jin's relationship may have been complicated, but at the same time I feel it was easier to reconcile since Dong-jin doesn't really like his mother... I guess the conflict nga was more on Woo-joo's family's reaction to their relationship. Okay tama na, magulo na haha. 

Queenmaker

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I liked this one. Although masyado siyang malapit sa realidad- it was actually too close for comfort. Medyo fresh pa sa isip ko yung 2022 elections and this drama was mej too similar to what happened and is happening. I was actually wondering if this drama was inspired by the Philippine politics LOL. But I guess all governments are corrupt. Depende na lang kung gaano kagarapal. 

Under the Queen's Umbrella

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I liked this one, too. Akala ko comedy pero ayun nga isa pa uling masalimuot ng sageuk. Again, I am baffled as to why people would like to subject their loved ones to such a life (royalty), when it's a life filled with betrayal and fear- walang peace of mind. I'd rather live in the mountains peacefully than live in a palace pero hindi ka naman makatulog nang mahimbing. 

Aside from the story, of course contributing factor ang mga cute na princes, most especially Grand Prince Sung Nam (played by Moon Sang-min). And I'm happy that he ended up with someone he really likes.

That's it- proud of how many kdramas I've finished the first half of 2023. Ang hindi proud eh yung wallet ko na palabas ang pera at wala masyadong papasok kasi hindi ako nagtratrabaho. But it's almost Christmas and orders are starting to come in... not exactly for Christmas yet pero at least meron. Please keep 'em coming ☺

I Got the Blues

 Why do I feel sad these days? 

Itigil ko na dapat itong overthinking ko eh. Not good for my mental health. 

I blame the string of sad Kdramas I've seen consecutively- The Glory, Misaeng, My Liberation Notes and Call It Love. I said I'll watch something light and funny next so I am currently watching 18 Again and surprise! it is not feel-good at all. Funny, yes. But definitely, hindi siya emotionally light. Midlife crisis na ba ito? 

I swear napakahina kong nilalang. Parang gusto ko na lang talaga tumira sa bundok o sa gitna ng bukid sa isang fully-furnished na kubo (HA!) at gumawa ng scented candles. Bakit parang sa Pilipinas lahat ng bagay mahirap? O ginagawang kumplikado? Why can't we make simple, easy-to-comply-to systems? Yung hindi nakakatakot magkamali? Gets ko na why Elvis would fake his death. LOL. 

Anyway, I'm just alarmed that I feel like crying every once in a while. Ayoko ng ganitong feeling. Maybe because of impending changes in my life pero parang napakababaw naman nun. At this point in my life, inaabangan ko na lang ay yung mga concerts na papanuorin ko at kung kailan ako makakapag-barista's drink sa Starbucks. I think I'm happy when I'm with family and friends pero 'pag ako lang, nalulungkot ako. 

I feel I need to keep this journal active again for my mental health's sake. This is my outlet, where I can vent. 

Hay basta. I need something feel-good to watch and I need to stop overthinking. 

New Year New Emz

Day whatever of just winging the new year. Been without kasambahays for two weeks now and it's killing meeeeee! Normally, it wouldn't; however, the parents are sick and aside from making sure we have food to eat (I don't cook so I just buy online in the village marketplace), I have to take care of them. It would also be easier if things weren't happening in the time of COVID. I made myself sleep in the room right above theirs so I can hear them at night. The other night, my Dad had been coughing continuously at 3am in the morning. I woke up right away and went down to their bedroom, asked how he's feeling and made him take mucosulvan- THANK GOD IT WORKED! I tested Mommy pala and she's negative for COVID, tester her twice so it's not COVID. It was Mommy who got the sore throat and started coughing first. Must be the weather or some other kind of flu. Anyway, while undergoing this ordeal, I was able to come up with a short list of reasons why I'm still grateful ☺

• My sisters! They're not here with me physically, but it's such a relief to know I have four more persons to rely on. I have four other persons to ask help from kahit not physically taking care of our parents, but in tending to our needs like meds for Mommy and Daddy, our food for the day, etc. Kahit yung may makakausap ka lang sobrang malaking bagay na 'yun. I am glad I have four ☺
• My new assistant. He's (yes he's a he, but identifies as a she) doesn't know much housework, but he's been a big help pa rin. He helps with a few things in the shop (I don't let him do a lot of things yet since he hasn't been "trained" to do those stuff, so I assign to him very easy and hindi naman kailangan masyado ng skillzzz) and he does the dishes after every meal and he cooks the rice. He's not Manang nor Meme, but malaking bagay na he's here to help me. Ayoko po sana na pumunta siya agad dito kasi feeling ko I can manage the business alone until April or May- galawang kuripot ba. Haha. But yeah, I'm glad he's here now. Kahit he's going back to school on June and I have to find a new assistant before he leaves. I just hope I do find a new one before he leaves and I hope that the new one will be masipag, mabait, may kusa and honest. 
• Manang, Meme and Nonoy may not be perfect but I am so grateful for them for making our lives SO MUCH EASIER. As in. I swear, God didn't give me a family of my own or kahit children man lang, cos he knows I can't handle it. He knows my time management skills is zilch. Ang dami kong reklamo sa kanila, but right now I realize how much convenience they're providing for our family. I sort of realized that before during our first bout with COVID here in the house, but this time I feel it's more difficult cos my sister's not here.
• BTS. Tama yung sinasabi nila na you don't find BTS, BTS finds you just when you need them the most. Well, as for me, I've been a fan since April 2020 (I just made it May para isang celebration na with Mommy's birthday), but it's only now that I feel the comfort of being their fan. Their videos have been keeping me company, making me laugh in this sorta-mej sad period of my life. I love the boys so much and I really wish I can see them perform live in-person when they all finish military service on 2025. I'll be 43 then. Hehehe. 

That's it for now. I wrote down three things I'm grateful for everyday but I can't remember it all now and I'm sure not everything I can write down here. So anyway, it's past my bedtime (yes, I've been sleeping earlier now- bagong bisyo ng tander me) and I have to bid you adieu, my online self.