Pirate Bay

Namirata na naman kami. Ssshhh... secret lang. Hehe. Except for He's Just Not That Into You which we watched in the cinema. Sosyal.

Getting on the Oscars bandwagon, my sister bought DVDs of movies nominated in the Academy Awards with the exception of Wild Child and HJNTIY. Wild Child was my pick and I totally regret buying it~ what a waste of P60.

Out of all the Oscar-nominated movies, I liked Slumdog Millionaire the best. It truly deserved its win as the Best Movie. At first, I was skeptical about this movie since it's... Indian. I was expecting it to be like those Indian movies I see on zee tv on cable. It was not and I love it! I love the story- very, very entertaining. And yeah, Dev Patel's cute. Though I still don't get the concept of very young love. I'm wondering whether kids around the age 0f 10-12 already have or feel true, real love. Jamal's (Patel) motivation why he joined the contest was to find Latika (Freida Pinto). I mean, are you even supposed to have a memory of a crush you had when you were 10 years old? And the feeling's so strong that it haunts you on a regular basis? Or maybe it's just that the circumstances around them were different.

Jamal Malik: I knew you'd be watching
Latika: I thought we would meet only in death.
Jamal Malik: This is our destiny

They say that when you want something so bad, the powers of the universe will conspire for you to get it.

I liked the dancing scene at the end of the movie. Very Bolllywood. And very Regal films, too. I love Dev Patel. Too bad, the copy of Skins Juno burned for me won't work :(

I have watched Kate Winslet's movies Revolutionary Road and The Reader, I wasn't really paying attention to it. But I think I got the gist both movies. Both were sad movies. With Revolutionary Road, I was amazed cos it's Jack & Rose. The Titanic's Jack and Rose! Nakakainis lang yung character ni Kate Winslet. The Reader was a little scandalous. Imagine, a 30-year-old woman having an intimate relationship with a 15-year-old boy! I read the back of the DVD and it said How far would you go to protect a secret? Apparently, farther than what I expected. I love Kate Winslet. I want to download Heavenly Creatures and watch it again.

Vicky Cristina Barcelona didn't amuse as it did other people. Maybe because I am not too fond of Scarlett Johansson. Surpsrisingly, I liked Penelope Cruz in this one. Usually kasi, I don't like Penelope Cruz's movies. I just find her annoying. And oh, Barcelona's very pretty. I would like to go there someday.

I watched He's Just Not That Into You with AB. Her treat. I really wish we had watched Confessions of a Shopaholic instead. But I really thought HJNTIY was fun. Well, some parts were fun but I got borlogs on most parts (borlogs= super bored kaya nakatulog). My favorite story out of all the other sub-stories was Gigi's (Ginnifer Goodwin). She's so cute. And it's funny how she thinks she's already in love with the guy who (she thinks) is interested in her. Alex (Justin Long) was such an arshloch. He's not even good-looking to begin with! Whatever.

In class, a friend asked who has already watched HJNTIY. I eagerly raised my hand and shouted, "Boring!" And another classmate said, "Ang ganda kaya! Alam mo Val, kaya ka na-bore kasi hindi ka maka-relate sa movie." Baka nga.

And of course, my favorite quotable quote from the movie, by Gigi:

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope."

Wild Child stars Emma Roberts. Let's just leave it at that.

Book 09-02: The Perks of Being a Wallflower

How does one feel infinite?

Recently, tumblr has been a huge influence on me and has made me do things including reading this book. Quotes from the book have been posted, reposted, blogged and reblogged many, many times enough for me to get curious about it.

The book is about Charlie and this one year in his adolescent life. It was an easy read because it is similar to a journal-format. Charlie writes letter to this anonymous friend about his adventures, misadventures, thoughts and whathaveyous.

I like the book because it deals with one's issues about the self. How people are trying to find themselves, that kind of sh*t baga. I like it because I was able to relate to the story in its general sense. Not to the drugs, sex and violence part. My adolescence has been very, very wholesome, thank you. It's just that I'm in this phase in my life (for n number of years already) wherein I am still trying to find el raison d'etre. I'm starting to think that it is a myth. Maybe we just have to take one day at a time and not try to find a deeper meaning. If people have this one reason for existence, they might have to spend their entire life looking for it. What if they never find it? Maybe life should not be taken too seriously. Or else I would lose my mind trying to find the very elusive raison d'etre.

We are here for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.

But here's the thing, you still have to live your life. Unlike what Charlie did. He lived life through the experiences of others. He was a wallflower who observed life go by from his little corner. And being a wallflower is what I am guilty of. Because of shyness and also the fear of failure, I have been watching things from my corner. I know I've been missing on a lot but it seems my fear of failure outweighs the thirst to experience life first-hand. So I want to change that. Maybe I should stop being afraid too much. This book made me realize that I am indeed missing out on life. Like Charlie, I also want to be aware that it was I standing up in that tunnel with the wind over my face and try to "participate."

I feel like a big faker because I've been putting my life back together and nobody knows. Ditto. I believe nobody even knew that my life fell apart. No, it didn't fall apart in a drastic and dramatic manner. It's just that suddenly, I didn't know what to do. The book even has a term for it~ the trance.

The trance happens when you don't focus on anything and the whole big picture swallows and moves around you.

And yeah, I do think I am in trance. Still in it and figuring out a way how to get out of it.

Anyway, here are some excerpts from the book:

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

"I love Twinkies and the reason I am saying that is because we are all supposed to think of reasons to live."

"It's just that I don't want to be somebody's crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don't want them to carry it around inside. I want them to show me, so I can feel it, too. I want them to be able to do whatever they want around me. And if they do something I don't like, I'll tell them."

" I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like all I can do is keep writing this gibberish to keep from breaking apart."
hmm... this might be the reason why I blog.

"I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I know other people have it a lot worse. I do know that, but it's crashing in anyway."

"I know I'm thinking too fast again and it's all in my head like the trance, but it's there and it won't go away."

"Please believe that things are good with me, and even when they're not, they will be soon enough."

I love this book. It's so.... how do I say this, umm... applicable to me.

And so the question... how does one feel infinite? I am not sure if I do want to feel infinite. Is that even a good thing?



Next book: The Five People You Meet in Heaven

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Thanks Lola Ycel for lunch and coffee! Enjoy your family lunch/dinner tomorrow. Dapat lang masarap yan ha.. exfenseeev!

Recently, I don't have the privacy to blog about stuff and I want to blog so bad. Well, I can blog (like right now) but there's always the possibility that they might see me blogging and this blog is supposed to be non-existent, so I keep my blogging to a minimum. Normal blogging conditions might resume next week pa.

I want to blog SO BAD about the ff:

• The Perks of Being a Wallflower
• Oscars movie marathon
• He's Just Not That Into You
  
• Overnight at Juno's and Boyce Avenue tripping
• Project 365
• "Tooki"~ the kid who is annoying the hell out of me
• and maaaaaaaaaaaaaany mooooore

Bow.

Waaaah!!! I want to write about SO MANY THINGS but I don't know where to start.

More mush

I just love this song.

Take My Breath Away- Tuck & Patti


Sometimes, it amazes me
How strong the power of love can be.
Sometimes you just take my breath away.
You watch my love grow like a child,
Sometimes gentle and sometimes wild.
Sometimes you just take my breath away.
And it's too good to slip by, it's too good to lose,
Too good to be there just to use.
I'm gonna stand on a mountaintop and tell the news,
That you take my breath away.

Your beauty is there in all I see,
And when I feel your eyes on me, oooh,
Don't you know you just take my breath away.
'Say, my life is yours, my heart will be
Singing for you eternally.
Oh, don't you know you just take my breath away.

'Say, it's too good to slip by, and it's too good to lose,
Too good to be there just to use.
I'm gonna stand on a mountaintop and tell the news,
That you take my breath away.

Sometimes, it amazes me how strong the power of love can be.
Ooooh, don't you know you just take my, take my breath away.

Oh, my life is yours, my heart will be
Singing for you eternally.
Ooooh, don't you know you just take my, take my breath away.

'Say, it's too good to slip by, and it's too good to lose,
Too good to be there just to use.
I'm gonna stand on a mountaintop and tell the news,
That you take my breath away.
Hmmmm.....

The Book Thief

First... CONGRATS TO ME for finally finishing reading The Book Thief. After a month and 2 weeks... Yay! Yay! Yay! So much for reading one book every two weeks

A nice read but also very sad. The war has robbed Liesel of her happiness many times~ when her brother died, when her mother left, when Max needed to leave and finally, when all her loved ones died.

What I loved in this book was Liesel's relationships with the people in her life~ Papa, Mama, Max and Rudy.

Hans and Rosa Hubermann were Liesel's foster parents. They both loved Liesel although in different ways. Hans was just more demonstrative of his love for Liesel, while Rosa wasn't but Liesel knew she loved her as well.

I also liked Liesel's relationship with Rudy~ mala young love, sweet love. I liked how their friendship has evolved into something more beautiful but it was too late when Liesel realized for what it truly was.

At first, Liesel could not talk. Perhaps it was the sudden bumpiness of love she felt for him. Or had she always loved him? It's likely. Restricted as she was from speaking, she wanted him to kiss her. She wanted him to drag her hand across and pull her over. It didn't matter where. Her mouth, her neck, her cheek. Her skin was empty for it, waiting.

Years ago, when they raced on a muddy field, Rudy was a hastily assembled set of bones, with a jagged, rocky smile. In the trees this afternoon, he was a giver of bread and teddy bears. He was a triple Hitler Youth athletics champion. He was her best friend. And he was a month from his death.

"Of course I told him about you," Liesel sad.

She was saying goodbye and she didn't even know it.

Blame all the mush on the fact that Valentines is just a few days away.

Here are more lines from the book that I liked~

Still in disbelief, she started to dig. He couldn't be dead. He couldn't be dead. He couldn't-
Within seconds, snow was carved into her skin.
Frozen blood was cracked across her hands.
Somewhere in the snow, she could see her broken heart, in two pieces. Each half was glowing, and beating under all that white.

***

His eyes did not do anything that shock normally describes. No snapping, no slapping, no jolt. Those things happen when you wake from a bad dream, not when you wake into one.

***

Can a person steal happiness? Or is it just another internal, infernal human trick?

Next book: The Perks of Being a Wallflower

Sunday's Big Event

Another sister is set to get married at the latter part of the year and the first step to make things official: pamamanhikan.

Sister's Boy Friend (SBF) & family arrived at 2pm. We had lunch/merienda. And then on to the main agenda. So tuloy na tuloy na ito. Bongga! Every year, one gets married. So who would it be next year? Hmm... sana sila ate na. Haha! I don't mind being the last. If someone gets married every year, I could be married at 30 years old. Not bad ha. Now I only have to think where to get that boyfriend.

Food galore. I love it! Daddy even cooked dinuguan. Dinuguan= LOVE.