Game na talaga. Promise Promise!

I know this must be the nth time I'm saying this in my blog but I just have to say it again- I NEED TO LOSE FRICKIN' 30 LBS FAST! I vowed to lose the extra pounds some 5-6 months ago but it seems that we are at a standstill. Well, I never really tried hard enough but I reckon this time I should drag my lazy arse into doing it.

I have 3 Reasons why I should lose weight:
♥ Of course the cliche, for health reasons. But really, this is one of the reasons. Our family has a history of hypertension, diabetes, etc... the works! Diba?! Plus, there's that PCOS thing too.

♥ I hate the fact that I can't fit into most of my clothes anymore and the fact that it seems I have to suck it all in just so the flab won't show. Dressing up every day is agonizing since nothing fits me anymore. Plus, the extra weight makes me look older than I really am. I reallllly hate it when people think I'm older than my real age.

♥ For AD's wedding. I just saw someone's wedding pics and observed that most of the bride's entourage were, umm, healthy. Most of us are chubby and I kind of don't want a similar picture for my sister's wedding. Ayaw ko. Promise!

So what should I do to lose weight?

♥ Option #1: Cut coke intake, less carbo
Isa pa itong "Promise, nagsasawa na rin ako sa kakasabi." Pero sa init ng panahon, masarap talaga mag-Coke. Though doing this option would really help me lose significant poundage.

♥ Option #2: Exercise
Sounds easy. Hard to pull off. I hope my mommy would give in and buy a treadmill, hehe. Pero imposible yan. Unang-una, mahal ang treadmill. Pangalawa, mas preferred ng mommy ko and passive exercise, ie. ang kanyang massage chair :P

♥ Option #3: Magpaka-anorexic (o bulimic)
This would really make me skinny but I think I love food too much to even consider this option. But really, if it were a matter of life and death, I could resort to this one. And have you seen what bulimics and anorexics look like? They look like walking skeletons and I reckon that is not a pretty sight to see.

♥ Option #4: Tsaa (or Kankunis) to death
Probable. But I've heard that Kankunis (or any tea that has senna leaves) could make your intestines bleed when taken excessively. Black or green tea is also effective but I think faster results can be obtained by Kankunis or Biguerlai. AC brought home black tea from China. Supposedly, it's what Chinese actresses drink to stay slim. If only I could get my lazy ass into getting that cup of hot water or the discipline to drink tea instead of soda. Grrr....

♥ Option #5: Post Nicole Scherzinger's picture/poster where it'll be the first thing I'll see when I wake up in the morning
Or what we'll call, Positive Conditioning. Every morning when I wake up, I'll see Nicole Scherzinger's body and then I'll be motivated to have a body like hers, oh alright... have a body slightly similar to hers. I'm not vying for washboard abs, I just want to have a wittle waist, that's all.

I'm downloading Pussycat Dolls' videos as we speak. Whatever mayjah losah! Haha!

In due time

Only now did I get to fully understand what the statement above means.

This year, I had planned on taking the Holy Week seriously. Before, I only saw Holy Week as the time for movie/K-drama marathons complete with junk food and coke bingeing. But this year, AD and I had agreed to attend the village parish church's recollections to really have the time to reflect on things. AD and I attended the first recollection but found it very akin to a religion class. AB suggested that we come with her to the recollection conducted by the Jesuit priests at the Ateneo in Rockwell. I was able to focus on the talk although there were times when my ADHD would kick in.

It was about decluttering one's life not only of material things but also of emotional baggages. We should rid our life of things that are holding us back from moving on. I should have attended this one since I reckon I have heaps of material clutter and tons of emotional clutter. I need to sort things out, carefully discern what matters and eliminate those that does not. I need to make space for new and better things in my life. Sabi nga, if we don't get rid of these clutter, how can new blessings enter our lives?

Also, the speaker talked about hell. Hell, supposedly, is being in a state of being stuck. I heard from my sister's friend this story where hell is not a place engulfed in flames, it's an icy place daw with Satan stuck in between ice. Wanting to free himself, Satan keeps on flapping his wings but this only makes the ice harden even more making escape impossible. So maybe for the past few years I was in my hell. For the past few years, I felt stuck. I didn't know what to do back then. Well, even til now I'm not 100% sure if what I'm currently doing is IT but I'm happy doing it so maybe I'm on the right track.

Like clutter, death can also be experienced in different contexts. It may be death in the physical context as in dedo, shotay or death in other context such as death in one's career or relationships. Also, it was discussed how God's love for us is limitless. His death on the cross was the most extreme someone could show how much he loves someone. In other words, kamatayan ang pinakasukdulan. And we must know that whatever we do, God will always love us.

Aside from attending the recollections, there was one very significant moment that happened amidst all these. The thing was I was confused whether or not to go into law school again. Several years after withdrawing from law school, I was seriously thinking of going back. I still am sure as hell I don't want to spend my lifetime lawyering but there's that what if factor that makes me want to try it. And also, there's also that inggit factor. Sometimes, I can't help but compare myself to my former blockmates who are already lawyers. Ayun, confused ako. But I got my answer during Good Friday. It was lika an aha! moment for me. I asked God for a sign but I didn't ask for something clearly defined. Gets? It wasn't like, "Lord, 'pag nakakita ako ng butterfly..." kind of sign. Hehe. I knew I will know it once I see, hear or read it. When I heard it, I knew that was God's answer to my question. And that made me decide, once and for all, that I don't want to take that path ever.

So to relate all that I just said to the quote above, I'm loving it that everything is starting to fall into place. First, things have to fall apart so you can pick up the pieces and in the process, decide which to keep and which to discard. From there, you'll have your starting ground. It took me this long to figure things out (which, by the way, aren't really that certain) but I'm happy with the way things are turning out. Things are falling into place and I couldn't be any happier about it.

Photo credits: ehow.com

"Have nothing in your house that you do not know to be useful, or believe to be beautiful."
-- William Morris

Oh no! A lot of the things here in our house are not useful and a lot of them I don't even believe to be beautiful. Our house is one big clutter enclosed within walls and a roof.

Have you played the Mystery Case Files Ravensheart? Have you seen how cluttered the rooms were in the game? Our house a little like that.

Last night was a reminder

why I never really liked going to Church.

When I was younger, like high school young, I never really liked going to Church for two reasons, 1) to spite my mother and, 2) I find people who serve the Church annoying and self-righteous. I've always believed that religion is a personal thing and there's no need for an edifice aka the Church/chapel to be able to talk to God.

However, two years ago I've started going to Church again. It was that time when I was feeling down and out and going to Church was one of the things that kept me sane. From then on, I promised to keep on going to Church and hear mass regularly.

Since it was Holy Monday last night, my mother, sister and I went to mass and attended the recollection right after. During the mass, we were seated in the right wing of the church, as usual. But for the recollection, my mom insisted that we transfer into one of the middle pews. Then came the church people I never really liked. These 'fervent' church goers are the same people who gossip and cuss at other people. [Never mind how I come to know about that, I have my sources.] And so I was reminded why I once hated going to Church.

But I am leaving God out of my antipathy to these said church goers. Not everyone is like them anyway. And since I still believe that religion is a personal thing, I will try my very best to ignore them. But I will not sit in the middle pews ever again.

Ano...

So mom wanted a butt shot..., originally uploaded by Charmy Photography.

My sister just took my measurements and that made me realize how effin' FAT I am.

I really really need to lose weight.

Magpapaka-anorexic na nga lang ako.
Pwe.

Random Things~ 4.03.09

AB said in one of her FB notes that,

"There is no such thing as random. Everything is truly in its place."

I believe that but for lack of anything else to put on the Title field, put it in there anyway ;)

♥ I like Katy Perry so so so much! I read her tumblr and liked her even more. I'm a fan because: 1) I like her music; 2) I like her fashion sense; and, 3) she's funny~ Did I mention already that she named her cat Kitty Purry? Or that her concert tour is called Hello! Katy. Punny girl, right? I can listen to Thinking of You over and over and over...

♥ Started working on my orders which means no internet (only now) and no TV for the day. Well, maybe a couple of hours of TV when I let my cousin watch Chances Are. But most of the day, I was listening to the radio. Heard David Cook's song a gazillion billion times!

♥ I'm worried about this very, very trivial thing I don't want to expound on.

♥ Supongo que tengo parar viendo los toros desde la barrera, no?

♥ I noticed that I am hungry all the frickin' time! Napapaisip tuloy ako kung may bulate ako sa tiyan. Yuck. Haha.

♥ Wanna watch 90210 and The Mentalist. And I've got a lot of catching up to do with Boys Over Flowers.

♥ Bought Twilight DVD already, whoopee! Watched it yesterday with cousins but I want to watch it again... with the commentary on. I like to listen to RPattz's voice and what he has to say which is usually stuff that don't make a lot of sense.

♥ I'm tried to copy Rachel Bilson's smoky eye effect but what I got was a black eye effect. How on earth do I achieve the look?

♥ I should be sleeping now. I have more important things to do tomorrow. Gah, it's Friday again. Time flies...

Pieces of Happiness

First day of the month. First day of the fourth month, to be exact. Well, I'm not going to rant about how quickly the days go by. Instead, I will repost something I found on tumblr. So here's tumblr tuesday on a wednesday morning.

photo credits: nom-nom-nom

♥ Pieces of Happiness ♥
from inspirings

1. Turn off your lights and listen to Ludovico Einaudi.
or turn off the lights and just lie there

2. Smile at a stranger and even say hi.

3. Give up your seat on a bus, train, subway.
i do give up my seat for pregnant women or those who have kids with them

4. Put “I Love You Cards” in library books.

5. Make yourself a cup of hot green tea and eat a daifuku.

6. Go through old photos.

7. Look at cute animals doing cute things.

8. Write letters to yourself. Past, present, future.

9. Browse the magazine aisle at Barnes and Noble.
at Powerbooks...

10. Write a 1 year plan, 5 year plan and 10 year plan. Describe your ideal life in intense detail, with figurative language.

11. Give someone a compliment.

12. Let someone tell you about her day. Tell that someone about your day. Then ask that person to tell you about her goals. Tell that someone about your goals.

13. Tutor or mentor someone. It’s more gratifying without pay.

14. Have a delicious vegetarian lunch!

15. Hold open the door for someone.

16. Tell a cute joke. (How do you get a pikachu onto a bus? You poke’m on.)
i think all my jokes are cute, hehe... and i love at my own jokes even if they say you're not supposed to

17. Watch a feel-good movie.
or a movie that amuses you. In my case, when I'm down, I just pop in my Mean Girls DVD (or any Molly Ringwald sweet-sweetan movie) and i'm good

18. Have lunch with your mom.
unfortunately, this has an opposite effect.

19. Pour your heart into your journal. Pound out those words. Then, breathe deeply. And let it go.

20. Write down a list of the nicest things people have said to or about you.

21. Remember a teacher who has made a difference in your life or challenged your perspective in a way that helped you grow as a thinker. Write her or him a letter.

22. Look through fashion magazines and write down inspirational pieces you could own.

23. Write out a business plan. You never know.

24. Scour the web for interesting articles on improving your life.
found a few websites that deal with self-improvement. only, i have yet to read them ;)

25. Read through old journals.
it's always good to take a trip down on memory lane. aaah, the good, ol' days

26. Take a warm shower. Wash your hair with energizing shampoo. Scrub your legs. And then put on soft pajamas.

27. Read quotes from people you admire. You might find you admire them even more.

28. Think, “What would (insert role model) do?”

29. Volunteer at a place to help young kids.

30. Remind yourself that your self-worth is dependent solely on you.

I've done quite a few from this list and I do think that they were gratifying. As I was telling Ycel awhile ago~ happiness is a decision. And since I've decided to take the road to happiness, I began to appreciate the simpler things in life. Yes I still want to become a landlady of leisure, put up my empire, be a shopping housewife/businesswoman and earn my first million before age 30; however, I am not letting my happiness depend on whether or not those aspirations become reality.

Have a nice Wednesday, y'all!