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Do you come here much? I swear I’ve seen your face before
Hope you don’t see me blush, but I can’t help but want you more, more.
Baby tell me what’s your story, I ain’t shy and don’t you worry.
I’m flirting with my eyes, wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? I gotta see your face some more.
Some more cause baby I,

I’ll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
Won’t let you get away (say if we ever meet again)
This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh)....


I want tickets to Timbaland's Shock Value Concert
feat. Jojo and Justin Timberlake
on March 27, 2010.
Mil gracias!

Goodbye Sunday

I'm still sad.
I never thought I would cry over a dog's death. I used to laugh at my friends who cry when their pets die. This is my karma, I think.

R.I.P. Sunday

Sunday died today, February 23 2010 at 2:30pm.

We noticed since last night that Sunday was matamlay. We thought it was only because he was making tampo since we have a new baby here at home. Or that he was matamlay because he was sensing that AB would be leaving soon. I tried to give attention to him last night, nag-walk pa nga kami. Then he stopped while we were walking. I thought he was going to make jebs, e nasa tapat kami ng bahay ng kapitbahay namin, so I pulled him in front of our house where he could do his business. Tapos nagwiwi lang pala but when I checked his piss, it was dark-colored. It was dark outside so I wasn't really sure if there was blood in his urine. Today, I checked on Sunday again. This time, he was already super weak. He was lying on concrete and breathing heavily, as if gasping for breath. Then he tried to stand up which he did but almost unsuccessfully, with his legs wobbling. He stood just to make wiwi and I saw his bloody urine. I asked Vicky if we could bring Sunday to the vet.

We carried Sunday to the car since he was too weak to stand. When we arrived, they checked his temperature. They also noticed that he was yellowish. Dumating na yung vet and he informed us that Sunday's prognosis was his liver was probably damaged and it could be caused by leptospirosis and chances of survival is verrry low. He gave us four options with the last option being "putting him to sleep." We called AB for her to make the decision. The vet explained to her the options and she opted for the last one. The vet was preparing to put Sunday to sleep and Vicky and I were already crying by this time when he then said that he doesn't have to put Sunday to sleep because Sunday's already dead. We took Sunday home, but this time he was already inside a black bag.

According to pamahiin, kapag namatay ang alagang aso, mayroon siyang sinagip na buhay. I hope this was the case with Sunday's death.

R.I.P. Sunday.
You will be missed.

Pick Flick: Valentine's Day

Reminded me of He's Just Not That Into You with its star-studded cast and since I didn't really enjoy HJNTIY, I was pretty skeptical about this movie. I was willing to wait for it on DVD actually than watch it in the cinemas. But AC and I accompanied AB in MOA yesterday for their exhibit set-up and to kill time, we opted to watch a movie. AC and I bought tickets for the last full show of Valentine's Day at 10pm at buti na lang 10pm ang last full show ng MOA. We were unable to watch the first few scenes of the movie because Big City's service is painfully slow.... and that bratwurst wasn't even worth the wait, it's tiny and it didn't have mustard. Going back to the movie, I went in with little expectations...




Five Things about Valentine's Day:

1. Above anything else, this movie made me feel insecure not because I didn't have a "valentine" but because all of the girls there were super skinny! But that didn't make me not want to devour my smoked bratwurst, LOL. Jessica Biel's waist was almost non-existent. I WAAAAANT!

2. Taylor Swift has got to be the cutest thing in this movie. I like her but I am not a fan. She seems like a sweet girl but I'm getting tired of her princess and fairy tale chu-chu lyrics. Anyway, I think she played her role in the movie quite well. She's so cute toting that big, white, fluffy teddy bear everywhere she goes. And when she did her little dance there, I thought she was adorable.I'd say if she were a real person, that is annoying. But this is a movie so I say cute.

3. Loved Julia Roberts' quasi-reprise of Pretty Woman. Big mistake. Big. Huge. Ugh, loves it!

4. How everyone's tale is interconnected is unbelievable at first but when you think about it, it is possible. Small world nga daw diba.

5. Okay, I admit that I did shed a few tears and it was with Estelle (Shirley Maclaine) and Edgar's (Hector Elizondo) story. An old couple married for years and then suddenly, secrets come out. I love how they depicted how old people make tampo but after a wee bit, they make up. I thought they were heading to splitsville considering it is Hollywood and 50+ years together isn't really hard to just put away... But yay! they kissed and made up. There's just something that tugs the heart about old couples who have gone through a lot together and still love each other. I want that.

Maybe it really pays to not have any expectations when you walk in a movie house because not having any means little or no room for disappointment (pwera na lang kung Silent Hill because that movie just sucks big time). Many didn't like it, saying it's too cheesy, cliché, blah blah blah. C'mon! It's supposed to be cheesy and filled with cliché because it is a romantic comedy film entitled Valentine's Day to be shown during the period of Valentine's day. It's supposed to make us squirm in cheesiness or giddiness, depends on which angle you're taking it from. I enjoyed it. Buti na lang hindi kasali dito si Jennifer Aniston.

Movie Line-up

Walang basagan ng trip#1

Noticed that recently I haven't been posting about my personal life here on my blog. Puro movie and book reviews, realizations about life ek-ek, etc. Nothing about what are the recent and current "happenings." So this post will be an update of what's going on with me and my boring but happy life.

♥ Lunch with the T-party girls. Hindi kumpleto pero at least may quorum ;) T-party sessions are harder to organize since some live far, far away in their haciendas (Juno? Jo?) and some are busy balancing work and social life. Ako, busy-busyhan lang. Anyway, it's always good to know that your friends, albeit months and months of not seeing them, that they remain the same. Walang episodes na, "SINO KA?!? At ano'ng ginawa mo sa kaibigan ko?" None of those. And I'm happy that my friends are not stuck-up, self-absorbed people who think that a law degree is also a license to wear tight-fit clothes that hug every crevice and bumps in the body.

I don't really feel like I'm turning 28. I'm finding it hard to reconcile the numbers with biology.

♥ The baby now lives with us **squee** and I'm losing so much time either ogling at the baby or cooing him. He's the cutest thing I've ever laid my eyes on. Kabog lahat ng ibang babies. Although I'm sure all the other moms and titas think that their own nephews/nieces are the cutest. To each his own. Walang basagan ng trip.
I can't wait til he can walk and talk. Some say I'll regret the day since he'll get super kulit and likot, but let's see if he's a match to my kakulitan and kalikutan. Ha! But then again, there's always his mommy and yaya if ever he gets too makulit and malikot.

♥ I was supposed to take the witness stand for my mom's case but I chickened out the last minute. I hated myself for chickening out the last minute but then again it's better to do so than push through with it unprepared. I abhor talking in front of a lot of people, what more to a lot of people I don't even know? I abhor any form of public speaking. Being able to ask for an extra fork from a waiter could already considered as a step up for me. But I have to take it nevertheless some time soon but I'll be prepared and prepped up by then. Guess it was the right decision to not pursue with the law career.

♥ Mahirap at magastos 'pag feeling mo pangit ka :( And that's what I feel these days. Feel nga lang ba? Haha. Pero sabi ng nanay ko, maganda daw ako. Probably you're thinking she will say that because I am her daughter after all... but beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so allow me to feel beautiful even if just in my mother's eyes. Wala nga sabing basagan ng trip. Anyway, I'm feeling extra ugly. I feel fat, old and scarred. Scarred, as in pimple scars, not the emo-type of scarred. Haha. And fat as in gaining 10 effin' pounds! And my sister asked bakit mukha akong oso? Ugh. I have this discoloration below my mouth brought about by my skin's excess dryness. So, oo nga mukha na akong oso. But being told that, shiiiit! as in nag nose dive ang self-esteem ko.

So I had lash extensions (nainggit kay Xmas), facial and colored my hair. Brought "beauty" products... kaya magastos. At least yung pagkamukhang-oso ko nababawasan na. I would have to deal with the fat a little later, when I'm ready and dead-serious about it. Ha. I've been putting off my diet for eons... Naka 30 na "Lose 30 pounds" reminder to self na ako. Bah.

♥ I think I know who I am voting for: Noynoy for president and Bayani for vice. I'm super dead set on Bayani because I think he is capable of bringing cleanliness and order to the country and that he can impose discipline in us. Hindi uubra ang please dito, hindi effective ang pakiusap. It should be imposed upon us. And I think what he did with Marikina was admirable. Some would say Binay is better but what he did to Makati is expected of him since he is working with bazillions of tax money. Bayani was able to do that with Marikina, sans huge tax collection. As for my presidentiable bet, I decided on Noynoy just recently. Before, I was choosing among Noynoy, Villar and Gordon. 'Wag daw si Villar, nenegosyohin niya lang ang Pilipinas. And the fact that he's not answering up with regard to the C5 insertion controversy. And obviously, Gordon will not win. So I'm going for Noynoy because I think he will do anything to not taint his parents' legacy.

I'm sure with this: I WILL NEVER VOTE FOR MAR ROXAS EVER. NOT IN A MILLION YEARS. I will never vote for anyone doesn't whose face doesn't have any expression whatsoever while speaking, matigas ang mukha! What has he done to improve Capiz? Nada. Zilch. Nil. Puro porma. Blech.

♥ Tagtuyot pa rin, as usual. But this time, literally and figuratively.

♥ El ultimo dia is fast approaching. Yiiikes. HANUBAH! Ang hindi daw madala sa santong dasalan, daanin na sa santong paspasan. Hindi ko kaya. Hanggang santong dasalan lang ako.

♥ Save the best for last. AB applied and got accepted in a job, based in NYC. Hindi New York, Cubao. Seryosong New York City ito. Mixed emotions really. I'm happy and sad at the same time. Happy because I'm happy for her. Sad because that's another one out of the house. For someone who has been with my sisters for 27 years, I'm definitely going through separation anxiety. But I'm still excited for her and her new endeavor. I'm also excited to go visit her there. Ipon na ako :)

Hay hay hay, ang bilis bilis bilis ng panahon.

Wish ko lang...

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Hoy, Late ka na!

Pick Flick: Dear John

This movie was not on my list of movies to watch. Saw the trailer some time ago and it didn't appeal to me. But after quite a number of people raved about the movie on Facebook, I got curious about it. What if I'm missing out on one of the greatest love stories ever? Over. Haha. What really happened was, last Friday AB asked me if I wanted to watch a movie. Hell, yeah!

Five Things About Dear John:

1. What's with Nicholas Sparks and his very emo male characters? I swear ang i-emo ng mga characters niya. Garret Blake is emo. Landon Carter is emo. Noah Calhoun is emo. And John Tyree is emo. Let go. Move on, people!
2. Martyr silang pareho. John re-enlists in the Army after the 9/11 attack in spite of his promise to her that he'll marry her after his deployment. Savannah marries another after she gets tired of waiting for John. Sabi ko pinapahirapan lang nilang dalawa ang sarili nila. Sabi ni AC, they just did what they think was the right thing to do at the time. So martyr nga sila. John didn't have to re-enlist if he really wanted to keep his promise and Savannah doesn't need to marry Tim just so she could take care of him and his son.
   
3. I'd kill for Savannah's impossibly-shiny locks.
   
4. Because John is the bida, I think I am supposed to like him. But I don't. He's too serious. He's no fun. Basag-ulo pa. And he's not nice to his father.
5. The ending reminded me of KC Concepcion and Lovers in Paris. Not that KC did a great job reprising the role of Vivian/Tae-young in Lovers in Paris because she actually did a horrible job in that one. Bikes + cafes= Lovers in Paris.
   

So I think I didn't really like the movie, asi-asi. It was okay. It's just not something I would watch for a second time. I like love stories. Actually, I am a sucker for love stories! But when both of them clearly had a choice and they didn't make that choice, nakakainis diba? Yun lang.

Chuck S03 E07: Chuck Versus The Mask

This is going to be short.

Though both parties of our favorite "fake" couple have found their own special someone just in time for V-Day, I am torn on how to feel regarding this. I love Chuck+Sarah as a couple, even if they claim it's just a cover. But I also love Hannah and how could you not fall in like with Brandon Routh? This is giving me a heartache. In spite of these new pairings, I hope there will still be bouts of jealousy between Chuck and Sarah every once in awhile.

New episode won't be out til March 1. Kill me in anticipation, why don't ya?

Yeba!

DOG 2010, The METAL Tiger Year

Dog people bask in Tiger years. Your money luck is good, the sun shines on your family and your heart throbs apace Tigers and Dogs are sisters under the skin. You two agree on so may things that it’s impossible to mention them all. But what is most salient about the character of your friendship is that you both seek to change the world. The Tiger, in his or her own way, blasts through barriers and carries banners high whilst you fret and worry that the cops will succeed in repelling the demonstration and perhaps even maim or kill someone in the process. You are the worrier. Tiger is the warrior. Tigers, (God love ‘em) are afraid of nothing. They espouse change, run after it and then roll around in it as though attempting to remove their stripes. But you can’t do that. You are too afraid that something awful will happen. This year, put yourself in the capable, fearless paws of the Tiger. You will thrive and so will your loved ones. In return for his or her favors, you can be cautious for the Tiger. As the impetuous Tiger leads you into battle, remember to whisper that confidentially you, as his faithful lieutenant, do not think it wise to be exposing one’s self without bullet-proof vests. Tigers may listen and heed your counsel. And then again they may not. What you have to watch out for? Your natural penchant for paranoia.

Yeba to the nth power!!! Looks like it's going to be a helluva good year for me ;) According to the Chinese, that is. Anyway, I believe that every year that you're alive on this earth is a good year so that makes this year BETTERER. Haha!

This prediction is so accurate, it's so me. I am a worrier and I am paranoid. Grabe, akong-ako! But still... still... still... money luck is gooood ;) You might get the impression that I'm very materialistic and all I care about is money. Au contraire. Not very materialistic here and I'd like to think that I'm very practical when it comes to spending money. Kuripot, oo, pero that's because I just want to be savvy when it comes to my finances. Also with the nature of my business, it's better to have something saved up for the rainy days. But really, I don't mind if a little love life will come my way ;) ;) "My heart throbs apace" daw, it has been throbbing apace for quite some time now! This time, I want someone's heart throbbing apace for me. WORD.

Read 2010/2: Act Like a Lady, Think Like a Man

by Steve Harvey

I was watching Tyra and this man, Steve Harvey, was the guest. What he was talking about really caught my attention. I decided to read this because I thought it was very interesting. It is!

I learned that there are three things that drive men: (1) who he is, (2) what he does, and (3) how much he makes. And until a man fulfills these three, he is not yet ready for a serious, committed relationship. And when do you know when a man loves you? Three things:

1. Profess
2. Provide
3. Protect

No first hand experience here, but I think I can agree with the Profess part. If a man doesn't introduce you to his family and friends as his special someone, then he doesn't see you in his future. Wala ka sa future plans niya (I hope Fergie realizes this) Gets?!?!?!?!?!?!?

And from reading this book, I deduced that the bottomline is, women just have to respect themselves. We have to respect ourselves and set standards. I can remember oh so clearly Harvey's explanation: a woman's standards is like a garden wall. If you set it low, anyone can easily walk over the wall and enjoy/destroy the garden. But if you set it high, only those who are willing to scale the wall will be able to do so. And if a man really likes you, he will scale that wall. Walang masyadong mataas na standard. If he really likes you, he will try to measure up to your standard. Sabi nga, kung gusto may paraan...

Very interesting talaga, I tell you. And for a person who's SSB, very insightful, haha :)

Read 2010/1: The Game of Life and How to Play It

by Florence Scovel Shinn

What a perfect book to start a new year~ Recommended by AD, my partner-in-crime in Project Abundance.

What I love about this book is that life doesn't have to be hard. It is hard when you say (or think) that it's hard. When you worry about something, you only attract that something to you. It says in here that we have to believe in God, the Infinite Intelligence, and trust in Him and what He has planned for us.

I do believe in God and that everything that happens, happens for a reason. But what I kinda had difficulty taking in from this book is the seemingly absence of the concept of free will. We have this grand plan of things working for us and supposedly, if we resist it, things could get all wrong and we'll end up sad, poor, etc. etc. I don't know. It's just hard to really take it all in, sans questions. Where there is an effect there is always a cause; there is no such thing as chance. So, parang everything is predetermined? This is much harder to believe than "There are no accidents (Gojocco, ca. 2000)." Siguro dito galing ang destiny shizz?

But I do believe in positive thinking and the power of affirmations. I mean, it's free! All I have to do is repeat said affirmations every day. What have I got to lose? Nothing. If it doesn't work, okay. But what if it did? Bongga, diba? And it's not some kind of cult here, it just asks us to trust in God and put away all our worries.

The Law of Karma~ this is also one of the guidelines I live by. Karma is Sanskrit for "Comeback." What goes around, comes around, right? What you sow, you reap. Don't do to others what you don't want others to do unto you. At least I try to live by this rule and I try to tell others to live by this rule, too (esp. my girls at the spa). It's just that I feel I can't be around these people all the time and all I can do is trust that they wouldn't do anything wrong/bad. If they did? Well, karma's a bitch, baby.

I tell you, this is a great book to start the new year with because it helps you try to banish all forms of negativity and just focus on the good. Bawal ang kontra-bulate!

Repeat after me:
"LOOK WITH WONDER AT THAT WHICH IS BEFORE YOU."

Panawagan

Saw this on my tumblr and just thought of posting it here, baka makita niyo lang siya. Pero iba talaga nakakuha ng atensyon ko, haha. Ewan ko kung mage-gets niyo.

John Lloyd ♥

Oh why oh why do I have a feeling na merong makakarelate dito nang bonggang-bongga?

Eeep. John Lloyd! ♥ ♥ ♥ I really don't like Bea but she seems to be in most of John Lloyd's projects. Bea must be my Sisyphus. Anyhoo, guess I'll be doing a countdown again...

20 days na lang ;)

PS. Out of all the Tabing Ilog boys, John Lloyd's the most successful to date. And to think he wasn't even that famous then. Maybe it pays to have good speaking voice na hindi boses palaka. LOL

Inferno

Warning: This is going to be very incoherent. I may not even make sense. I won't even try to make sense.

Hay ang hirap namang maging in a limbo. It's like I know I could do so much more but then again I think I am happy with my life as of the moment but there are still some things missing in my life but come to think of it, I'm so much luckier than most people but then again there are still so much to do and so much to see. Kung hindi mo maintindihan, pareho tayo.

According to a Stacie Orrico song, there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me. Well, that's how I feel. I'm finding it hard to find the perfect balance between contentment and "living life to the fullest." Ah basta, feeling ko ewan. Ewan talaga! I think I must do my vision board na para at least I will be reminded of what I still want to achieve, madali kasing makalimot pag walang visible reminder. Out of sight, out of mind nga naman. Eh bakit... Nevermind. Argh.

S03 E06: Chuck Versus the Nacho Sampler

It just keeps getting better and better, just how I like it. But really, don't the CIA know any better than to keep making the Buy More as their rendezvous every frickin' time? Especially with today's technology, like GPS and similar shizz, it could be easier for the enemies to detect that there's something going on in there. But, not my problem.

Although I must say I was a little disappointed that there wasn't much about Chuck+Hannah. I was expecting more of this and how their "relationship" would flourish and make Sarah jealous, but I guess that would have to wait. Patience is a virtue. I think Sarah still hasn't predicted the threat that is Hannah. Casey referred to her as the newest Buy More-on. Funny! I just love this show.
I really really like Hannah but I don't know if I like her for Chuck or just because she could be instrumental to Sarah finally admitting, without retracting, her true feelings towards Chuck. Even if Sarah doesn't admit it, her eyes give her away. I think she has fallen for Chuck and because carnal rule of being a spy is "Spies do not fall in love," she's putting up this front expected of her in her line of work. But this is where Hannah comes in handy, to evoke those feelings.

The other nerd herds are circling Hannah like vultures circling their prey, even Morgan has got his eye on this one.
Jeff and Lester are creepy creatures, I swear. But Morgan stumps them in the creepiness department since he uses stalked information, like when he has Swan Lake playing in the background because he found out it's Hannah's favorite. But what's funny is that he completely forgets about Hannah when he founds out that his best friend may be keeping secrets from him.

This week's mish (Chuck's term for mission) is for Chuck to develop this IT geek Manoosh as his asset. Manoosh has constructed an intersect, with the aid of The Ring. This episode is somehow very reminiscent of Chuck's very first episode. Aside from the reasons why the government is after them, they kinda have the same profile. They even look alike, which I think is sadya. But Chuck is cuter ;)

But according to my sister, Manoosh could be Chuck's brother, especially given the fact that he was able to make an intersect. Hmm... Nah. I don't think so. Gut feel. Though I am still conflicted with Hannah. I'm thinking she's not because she just seems so innocent and fragile, but then again Kristin Kreuk has her Street Fighter background meaning she could do kung fu or something like it...

What breaks my heart is Chuck is beginning to learn the ropes of spy-dom. First, he rejected Sarah's elopement proposal. Then, he lied to Ellie, straight-faced. He betrayed someone's friendship. He even threw a blade at someone, not a gun but hey, it's a start. I don't know if I like this new Chuck and Sarah agrees with me. I like the old, geeky Chuck.
It's eating Chuck and I'm glad to know that he still isn't comfortable with all of these spy stuff. It doesn't come easily to him and I hope that in the end, he will not become a full-fledged spy. Speaking of the end, I have a feeling that this season could be Chuck's last. With Morgan and Ellie set to find out what's Chuck up to, sooner or later, he's going to be found out. Being a fan, of course I don't want Chuck to end but all good things must come to an end, right? And it's better that they end it while they still have a nice storyline going on. Plus, I want to know how the story will conclude. Wow, has it been really three years already? Really, time flies fast. Super fast. Next episode, please :)

what diet?

Sometimes I wish I were anorexic or bulimic. I'm not and I'm in love with food so much that the pounds just keep on coming!

Bah.

In God's Time

Maybe there really comes a point in one's life when you start worrying about your future in the romance department BIG TIME... Being in my late 20s and haven't been in any relationship - whether short or long, serious or fling-fling lang, MU or whatever you may call it- none of those, so I won't really know what I'm missing out on. I don't know why so many people are fussing so much about this subject like crazy, like their life depended on it. Of course, I do want to be in a relationship too, get married, have a family~ the works!~ but of course, these will all come in God's time, I believe.

My kinakapatid came over last Wednesday to have her brows groomed. But of course, aside from that, chika time also included. We walked about lots of stuff but mainly about love lives. Both unattached and SSB (single since birth), we mostly have the same concerns and other chuva. Ang kinaibahan lang namin, she's actively looking whereas I am still hoping that the one for me, the one by Divine Right, will fall from the sky and ring our bell. She is currently sad and frustrated, most especially with her love life or lack thereof. That's when I start dishing my Happiness is a decision mantra and how our happiness depends solely on ourselves and once you let it depend on external factors, then you'll never truly be happy. I am not preaching to her or anything, I am just sharing what I'm practicing and thought that maybe that could help her overcome sadness. She's sad that until now, she remains single. Scrap what I said about the one falling from the sky, that's just some wishful thinking, who doesn't want to make things easier for them , right? Although I believe that one must network and go mingle, I think that it will all happen in God's time, because God knows what's best for us, right? She said she's getting tired of this "In God's time" reply, that what if you want to be happy RIGHT NOW, doesn't God want her to be happy right now? So I told her that happiness is something that should not be dependent on external factors and if ever she feels sad, she should not dwell on those stuff that makes her sad. But she said that for her, when one feels sad, you should feel it. Well yes, but after for a moment, you must know when to stop feeling it and move on. Like what I tell my cousins, my sisters and friends, I want to get married, have kids and all other things that would entail a family life. That's is what I want in the near future, I specifically indicated in the near future because time is of the essence. And all I want to be when I grow up (or older) is be a shopping housewife and mother. BUT in the event that it won't happen, I vow to not mope and curse the world. Although there's nothing else in the world I want to be than that, I wouldn't let it define me. It may be what I really, really, really want but then again if it's not for me, maybe God has other plans.

I feel she really doesn't want to get out of her misery just yet. Actually, I don't know if it's really just about the lack of a love life or maybe it has something to do with her father's death a year ago. So I really can't say we are on the same turf because in addition to not being in a relationship, she's also dealing with her father's loss. I've told her everything I know which I think could help her with what she's going through because I've gone through a somewhat similar period in my life and that's my way of helping. Everyone has his own way of coping. Maybe she just has to feel it like what she said and maybe when she's had enough, she'll just snap out of it. I just pray that she'll be fine soon.

I still maintain that if it's yours, it will be yours in God's time. I won't doubt. I'll just believe. I'm perfectly happy right now. My happiness doesn't depend on anything and anyone. Siguro sa hormones ko pa.

Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you.