I want...

This is the counter that I want. Unfortunately, this is not the counter that I have. I had it fixed already but I am still having difficulties with it. For one, it is smaller and I don't have much space. Imagine sitting there for hours and the only movements you can make is to turn to your right. Second, it still isn't high enough for customers not to see what I am doing in my desk. I don't want them to see that I'm watching Gossip Girl or I'm writing entries on my journal or playing Luxor on the computer. But I guess it has to be not too high to be able to check on the girls when they're at work. Hay nako... I just wish it's higher and I could just have a higher stool or chair to sit on. I feel cramped in that tiny space.

But time will come when space and money will permit me to have this dream counter of mine...

And I want this...
PROMISE!

Medyo totoo... Katakot.

Val, Loving Too Much is your primary love story!

The Loving Too Much story stems from your overflowing love and hope. Sometimes, however, it can be muddied by misguided feelings, expectations and sometimes, an unrequited desire.

The people you're most attracted to are usually just out of reach and all the more alluring for it — like those early crushes on teen idols. The less available your partner is, emotionally and physically, the more desirable he becomes.

You daydream, and your imagination fills in the details that reality hasn't provided. Do you ever seek out indirect contact with this person, visiting his workplace or getting to know his friends? Do you find yourself dreaming about marriage after a second date, or perhaps after a quick affair? The hit film "Fatal Attraction" illustrates an extreme version of the Loving Too Much story — taking it to abnormal levels. What it doesn't fully explore is the capacity for love that you probably possess.

People who share your story have plenty to offer, but they tend to put too much love into someone they shouldn't. Some people also interpret their partner's actions as they want to, not necessarily as they were intended. Sometimes this happens because they spend more time focusing on the fantasy of a relationship rather than the reality of one. It is also possible that you assign characteristics of your last love to the person you are dating.

Psychologists see people projecting all the time. Projecting feelings about one person onto another. Do you know the person you have developed feelings for, or are you projecting what they might be like because they seem to match what you want in life? Do you fall for anyone in a lab coat because you want to marry a doctor? Do you ignore strong feelings for a long-time friend because he isn't a doctor?

The Greeks had Venus and the Romans had Aphrodite. Your archetypal love story has been filling the pages of literature and poetry for centuries, though recently it's been negatively promoted by Hollywood. In film, the extreme form of your story can be found in the stalker of "Play Misty for Me." But let's not forget the classic "Cyrano De Bergerac," whose obsession with a woman is stymied by his fear she'll reject him over the size of his nose. In a more contemporary version of the tale, "The Truth About Cats and Dogs," Janeane Garofalo plays a woman obsessed with a man she's too afraid to court herself. These love stories are powerful precisely because they are shared by so many. Though the settings change, the story remains the same.

Loving Too Much is about the things in life that you don't think you can have, then learning to create a more realistic ideal for yourself and your partner. It's about working through the fear of rejection, insecurities, and overwhelming longing to love wholly and completely.

I'm Jenny?!?

Which Gossip Girl Are You?

My Result: Jenny

Super sweet, slightly shy, and always looking for the best in others, it's obvious that your Gossip Girl match is Jenny. Even though you may sometimes feel like the underdog in the crowd, you shouldn't. Tough and determined, you might not always succeed on the first try, but if there's one thing people know about you, it's that you never give up. Besides, who wants everything handed to her on a silver platter? Not you.

Even if you sometimes fall short of your goals, you never stop trying. And while you definitely set the bar a little high for yourself sometimes, we're pretty sure that you'll reach your dreams no matter what it takes. You probably don't realize how many people envy you, either. But think about it — who wouldn't?

http://web.tickle.com/rd/50651/tests/gossipgirl/index.jsp?testname=gossipgirlogt&resultid=D
What are you?

I can't be Jenny! If I'm Jenny, then it would be incest cos I like Dan.

A new obsession

I'm missing Gossip Girl. I have lost track of how many times I must've seen each episode in the absence of new ones since season 1 has concluded. And word is that season 2 will be on the fall of 2008 which is more or less 9 months away! Anyway, the good thing is I have the season 2 disc of Felicity which would serve as my diversion from missing GG too much.

Ahhh... Felicity. I loved season 1 and luckily, I was able to secure a copy of the second season. Felicity chopped her locks which was pretty tragic, at least for me. It was such a drastic change, I mean. And so it was also confirmed that Felicity went with Ben on that road trip home rather than with Noel. Stupid girl. If I were her, I'd totally go for Noel who is cute and intelligent. After choosing Ben over Noel, Ben suddenly decides she doesn't really like-like Felicity. And I thought when two people go into a relationship, it must be a pre-requisite that they love (or it would eventually lead to love). Hmm... things must be really different on the other side of the world. It's also obvious that Noel still has feelings for Felicity and Felicity may still have feelings for Noel, too. Gaga girl.

Ergo the question: With whom would you rather be, the one who loves you or the one you love? Ahorita, I'd say with the one who loves me but if I were in an actual situation, I wouldn't know. It is very easy to say that I'd choose someone who loves me. But what if I really love/like the other one? Like in Felicity's case, she liked Ben for years and he even was her reason for going all the way to New York and suddenly Ben comes and supposedly likes her, too? It is so much tempting to go for Ben. So tempting. But when they finally see you, of course you also think that they might really like you and not just because they know you like them and it would be convenient for them. For Felicity, Ben was a like a dream and suddenly her dream is coming true. If I will be in such a predicament, I wish I would choose The Noel over The Ben.

So enough with over-analyzing drama series.

Last night, we had a family dinner with relatives who just came home from their vacation in the States. Those kids... My nephew and my niece didn't really like the idea that they spent the holiday in the States. If it were me, I'd go in a heartbeat!

Asked about how the other cousins were like and my nephew said that they're drawn-back and guarded. Hmm... stiffies? And I thought people in the States know how to have a good time? He even said that this particular cousin was so guarded that he doesn't know what she's thinking that it's scary. And when she was here, I kinda got the same vibe from her. And looking back, that is actually pretty scary.

Movieeeeeeeeees!

I bought movies yesterday- A 24 in 1 DVD (Serendipity, While You Were Sleeping, Before Sunset, etc.), Juno, Sydney White and the 2nd season of Felicity (at last!).

I watched Sydney White last night. I like Amanda Bynes. She's really funny and she looks like a cabbage patch kid. Although sometimes I feel as if her roles in all her movies are somewhat similar. Out of all her movies that I've seen, my favorite still is She's the Man.

It's funny how instead of the seven dwarves, they have seven dorks. But the dorks there weren't totally nice dorks, they're actually scary and somewhat pervs. In the entire duration of the movie, I've never noticed any school official or authority which makes it a little unrealistic. It's a bit unreal to leave the school budget into the hands of the student council president, don't you think?

Due to my obsession over Gossip Girl, I am likewise obsessed over New York. Ergo I am in a search of movies set in New York and am planning to have a movie marathon. I've just watched Kate and Leopold, Maid in Manhattan, The Nanny Diaries, Serendipity, While You Were Sleeping and The Devil Wears Prada. Looking at what I just wrote, I just noticed they're all chick flicks. Hmm...

Another one...

Shocking news: Heath Ledger was found dead in his Manhattan apartment today. Not that it's any of my business but the first thought that entered my mind was his baby (with Michelle Williams). At least he has left his legacies which are his daughter, who looks so much like him, and the movies he has made.



Source: hollywoodbackwash
Cuteness, diba?
Pinag-biyak na bao...

I haven't really watched any of Heath Ledger's movies aside from 10 Things I Hate About You (which is included in my list of favorite movies) but I reckon he is a good actor. During his 10 Things days, he's not exactly what you would call cute and crushable, most especially when his hairline is receding. But I had a crush on his accent. And that time pa pala, I was so into Australia and everything Aussie.

Basta sayang... And I really feel sad for his daughter. I hope his death isn't drug-related because if it is, walang kwenta ang pagkamatay niya.

If it's broken, patay tayo d'yan

Hay nako! Sira pala ang wall clock namin sa kwarto. I think its batteries needed to be replaced. Anyway, the effy thing was... I was doing this label for the wedding on Saturday and I was taking my sweet time since it said on the clock that the time was 1:35 am. I mean, it's late but it's not late-late for me. I was planning on going to bed at 2 am tops since I have to wake up at 5 am. When I looked at the clock, it still is 1:35am and only then that I realized it is broken and it is already friggin' 3:07 am. Now I'll only have two hours worth of sleep, less even.
Entonces, baboo!

Rants Galore and Sunday, the dog

Kamusta naman na natalsikan ko ang mga mata ko ng fragrance oil? Mahapdi. Nakakainis. Pero okay lang dahil pagkatpos ko hilamusan ang mata ko ng tubig, okay na.

The abovementioned wasn't the most unfortunate that happened to me from the last time I posted an entry to this day. From a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the most shitty, I'd give it a 4.

I'll start with the unfortunate events...

1st: High-blood ako ever when I overheard (chismosa kasi) my employees and their "sulotera" (na itago na lang natin sa pangalang Chongga) talking. This Chongga is teaching MY employees how to ask permission in a nice and respectful way to quit working for me and start working for her. I guess it's just normal that people look for better opportunities and higher pay and normally, I'd let them go when they want to resign. But not when they will transfer somewhere which is 2 frickin' stalls away from me! And mind you, we will be offering the same service. Stupid Chongga! Pagbaliktad-baliktarin mo man ang mundo, it is not okay. Stupid Chongga.

2nd: I went on a diet- South Beach diet, that is. But it was shortlived. RIP. But I'll proceed not eating rice and avoid foods high on sugar, including my all-time favorite, Coca-Cola. I'll see if it'll have the same effect as the South Beach diet. If it does have the same effect, Thank God because that means that I'll get thinner without feeding myself scrambled, hard-boiled or soft-boiled egg every frickin' day. But if it doesn't work, I'll try going on the diet again and stick with it (6 weeks lang naman eh).

3rd:The PC was acting up again. Nakakainis kasi I had a lot of things to do including a label for a wedding on the 26th which is on Saturday already and I can't do it because it was broken. But now, it's working already. But I don't know kung kelan uli susumpungin. Hopefully, hindi na and hopefully, it's fixed na forever! Also, if anyone out there is thinking of buying PCs from Accent Micro, I suggest DON'T! When my sister and I bought this PC from them 2 years ago, just a few days after it had a lot of problems already such as shutting down while you're in the middle of what you're doing and a video card which is all fungus-y (I still have no idea how that would happen). And when we brought the PC back to them for repair while it was still under warranty, I sensed irritation on their part. Back then, I thought: "Just a few days back you were all swarming around us when we were deciding on which to buy and now that we want something fixed, you act irked and irritated."

4th: I super miss Gossip Girl. Here's an interesting article about the series.

And now I'm done with ranting. I'll start raving naman.

We already have a dog. Temporarily. A rottweiler pup named Sunday. My sister gave her the name Sunday since she got it last Sunday. How imaginative. Haha! Pero keri na rin kasi if I were to give it a name, chorva ibibigay ko. Although I pet the dog and give it a bath, etc., I am still scared of her. I still fear that anytime it would bite me. I would love to have a dog but I prefer the smaller ones. Sunday's cute kasi maliit pa siya, baby pa. But when she becomes an adult dog, she'll be BIG and scary. Sayang kasi super malambing siya. And if she's as big as I am, I don't think I'd be comfortable petting her.

I said temporarily because on Sunday, my cousin will get her. We're not supposed to have dogs in the house since my sister's asthmatic and my daddy doesn't really want pets in the house. Maybe because we don't really take care of them and pets require a lot of attention. Lalo na aso. Kung guinea pigs pa lang, sablay na... what more sa aso? With guinea pigs, their poo-poos are small and clean-up is easy but with dogs... ayayay... dyan ako suko. Buti na lang andito si manang.. hehe.

And just last night, I realized that having a dog is a big responsibility. Last night, around midnight, Sunday was barking like crazy. I mean, she doesn't bark when it's morning then why is she barking now? We went downstairs to check on her, baka gutom or something. And we really have to do something to stop her from her bark-a-thon for fear that the neighbors would hate us for the noise. Guinea pigs and rabbits are easier to take care of because they don't make sounds. They don't bark and howl. But they also aren't malambing. I guess that's the trade-off. And for that I choose dogs over rodents as pets.

Hay... I need to start on my order na. It's due this Thursday and I haven't concocted a single drop. Patay na ako mamaya. Pa-morning-an na naman ito.

2 Rants and a Solved Dilemma

Somebody please slap me!

I just let a very good opportunity pass! Stupid. Me.

But the good thing is there's still next year. I could try next year. And I will try next year. Definitely. And next time, I won't let anyone's negativity get to me.

***

Bad day. Mommy's mad at me. Hmm... what should I do? I'm not really fond of apologizing after a tiff and it wasn't my fault to start with. She's the one getting high-pitched on me. Maybe I'll let her "madness" die its natural death and wait until she talks to me. Pero, I'm sure, makakarating 'to kay Daddy... masama na naman akong anak, as always. Bow.

***

I have this dilemma.

Ycel gave me the Gossip Girl prequel book for Christmas but I don't know whether I should read it before the others. I've read the first novel of the series already but I haven't bought the second novel which is the direct continuation of the first one. So, I am really contemplating on whether I should read the book before or after I've read everything else. It is the book available here for me to read but I want to read the other novels that were released before it. For example, I think it was better to read Jessica's and Elizabeth's journal after reading the entire book series since you'll literally have "aha" moments on why they are like the way they are. And the same goes for this one...

Okay, I've decided. I'm reading the prequel after I've read all the other books.

P.S. Ate Bam also said I should read the books in the order they were released. So I should read the prequel last talaga.

Just finished watching episode 13 and bad news is... it is, after all, season 1's SEASON FINALE! What would I do now every Thursday Tuesday morning?

That was a great season finale. It almost had me crying. Well, I kinda have grown fond of Blair and I felt for her when everyone turned their backs, even her army, on her. Yes, I am on Bitchy Blair's side and I'm super irked at Little J for turning her back on Blair. It was bad timing. Blair snapped at her just before the scandal came out. I remember fully well something like this happened in my school... she's not exactly the queen bee (but maybe she thinks she is) but when the scandal broke out, her posse of not less than 10 have turned their back on her and actually cracked jokes about her "condition" when she was not in class. In her case, it serves her right. Social-climbing, stapler-napping b*tch (she really was). Going back...

It amazed me how the story turned around. The season started with Serena coming back from boarding school. It was to run away from guilt she was feeling when she slept with Nate, Blair's boyfriend. When she came back, Blair was nothing but super mega over hard on her and this aggravated when she found out Serena had slept with Nate. They made up. Blah, blah, blah. N and B broke up. B slept with C. N wants B back, they slept together. N found out about B and C. B's army turned their back on her. And now B was about to run away to France just like what S did.

Whew! That's pretty hectic... for 17-year-olds.

The season can be summed up with this line: "The best friend and the boyfriend, pretty classy S and B." Both committed the same booboo. Kawawa naman. But all's well and Blair's staying since she had Serena to help her fight her battle... ika nga, been there, been that. Bwahahaha!

I'll be counting the days until the next season. Maybe I should buy myself the second book of the GG book series. Just finished the first book and the best way for me to distract myself from missing the series is to read the book. I will... when I get paid.

I got your back, B! Sabi nga ni Balto, dontchuwori.

Kalokohan

Third post of the day. Obviously, I've been spending too much time in front of the pc once again. I'm waiting for the Gossip Girl's 13th episode to finish downloading.

But this time, I'm done with ranting. In fact, I will be gushing. As pathetic at it may sound, I have a superduper huge crush on Dan Humphrey, a fictional character. Dan is one of the characters in CW's hit TV series, Gossip Girl. Usually, I crush on pop stars, actors and some random people who doesn't even know I exist which is already pathetic. And now I'm even more pathetic that I have a crush on a person that was only created by one person's imagination.

Technically, Dan Humphrey is only a representation of the guy I would crush on. Intelligent, cute, nice and polite- what more could you wish for? That is, if you already have the guy. But the worse part is I still haven't found that guy. And I wish that I will. But until that guy comes along, the fictional character would suffice.

Dan Humphrey, I ♥ you!

So Lord if you're reading this entry (I know you are since you're omniscient), please grant my wish. Please grant me my own living, walking, talking and thinking Dan Humphrey.

Anyway, I'm sort of mourning over the impending supposed season finale of Gossip Girl. Due to the screenwriters' strike, they only have until episode 13. Waaaah! And there were supposed to be 22 episodes! I just hope they won't make me wait too long for the second season.

Bentang-benta!

Things you don't want to hear during your own surgery:
-san yung gunting na bago ? Bat may kalawang to?
-10ml? may nakasurvive na ba dyan? Sabi ko 5ml lang!
-doc, ubos na po pala yung anesthesia.
-kanina pa bukas yung tiyan, asan yung pantahi?
-sunog! Sunog! Labas lahat!

MEKANIKO: sir, hindi ko po naayos preno ng kotse niyo.
CUSTOMER: ha?! Pano yan?
MEKANIKO: nilakasan ko na lang po ang inyong busina! Happy trip na lang po!

JAIME ZOBEL DE AYALA: 1/2 Pinoy, 1/2 Spanish.
HENRY SY: 1/2 Pinoy, 1/2 Chinese.
LITO ATIENZA: 1/2 Hawaiian, 1/2 Polo.
MIKE ARROYO: 1/2 Pinoy, 1/2 pork.
JOHN OSMENA: 1/2 Pinoy, 1/2 Pinay.
PROSPERO PICHAY: 1/2 Unggoy, 1/2 gulay.
GMA: 1/2 ... only.

thought to ponder on:
hindi kaya ang dahilan ng pagbaha sa panahon ni Noah ay pinutol niya lahat
ng puno para gumawa ng napaka laking arko? ano sa tingin mo?

PEDRO: niloko ko yung tindera kanina.
JUAN: paano mo naman niloko yung tindera?
PEDRO: nagpaload ako eh wala naman akong celfon.

kung totoo ang ' Darwin 's theory of evolution' na ang tao ay nagmula sa
unggoy, bakit may mga taong mukhang kabayo?

Sari-Sari Store Mentality

I'm going to rant about the Filipinos' frickin' sari-sari store mentality.

Being a third-world country, sari-sari stores (aka convenience stores) are sprawling everywhere! In our village, there must be one in every street. More so in squatter areas where sari-sari stores exist side-by-side! Although they really sound so third-world, I don't really condemn the existence of sari-sari stores since they're so, well, convenient. Where else can I get my daily fix of Coke and junk food? Or if you forget to buy an ingredient or whatever, there's always the trusty ol' sari-sari store.

What I abhor about this is that when your neighbors see that your store is doing good, they suddenly get the idea to put up one, too. How do you expect 6 sari-sari stores existing side-by-side to actually earn something? Don't they think that a single store would be enough for a given area? OA na kung OA but I think that the government or DTI or whatever government agency responsible for giving permits regulate them. At, diba... how original! May sari-sari store na nga kapitbahay mo, magtatayo ka pa? Are you stupid or are you stupid?

What got me writing about this is, again, related to the sudden proliferation of salons inside the village. We conceptualized ours even before the wellness trend hit mainstream. We put up a nail salon in the area since a decent one doesn't exist in the area. And now that there is one in the area (ours!), at least 10 other people want to put up their own nail spa. I mean, the village isn't even a big one. And people, it doesn't earn big bucks! I frickin' want to tell them to go find their own brilliant idea and not copy someone else's.

Boosit!

Happy Birthday Merry Christmas!

Happy Birthday Lola Christmas!

You make me vomit. Blech.

I'm trying so hard to do this positive thinking and attracting the good thing but it seems that it isn't working. Or maybe I have to try harder. Much. Much. Harder.

I'm frickin' pissed off. It seems that there's always this never ending streak of problems. I am so full to brim with these people. Ang hirap sa kanila, siraan sila ng siraan. Bakit hindi na lang nila gawin ng maayos trabaho nila? Nakakapika na eh. Eto si tanda kala mo kung sino magsalita e bwisit din naman. Gusto niya ako kausapin ngayon... tungkol sa kalaban daw namin na parlor. Lechugas naman! Ilang beses na nga sinasabi na ayusin lang nila trabaho nila kahit paligiran ka ng ilang parlor diyan kung maayos ang serbisyong binibigay mo, babalik at babalik pa rin ang tao sa'yo.

Alam mo parang ayaw ko na nga eh. Kung puro sakit lang ng ulo dulot nito. Nakakainis!

Nako, I'm succumbing to my negativity again. Good vibes! Good vibes! Release the good! Haha, Little Nicky ba 'to?

Although due to experience, these people are all the same, I know I can find some people who aren't like that, who are truly concerned about their job and not just what you give them. You give them so much more than what is due them and still they ask for more. Ano sila sinuswerte? That's why I'd rather dabble on business I can do myself- para walang sakit ng ulo. I guess I have to start looking for new people, better people.

Can't I just live in frickin' peace? Hay.

Feliz Año Nuevo and Resolutions

FELIZ AÑO NUEVO A TODOS!

I can't bloody believe that it's already 2008! Seems as if 2007 just whizzed by.

I was planning to do a year-ender post but we were busy preparing for our New Year's celebration and so I wasn't able to make one. I haven't even come up with my resolutions for this year. However, I just came across this newsletter from one of those websites I subscribe to and I liked how she did her year-in-review and resolutions for the coming year. Ergo,

I would like to be able to tell you that in the past year I...
* lost 30 lbs.
* successfully lessened my soda intake
* generated an ROI for our business
* finished reading El Zahir
* traveled outside of the country
* earned my first million
* was more hands on with the business
* spent less time on the net


Instead, I have to tell you that in the past year I...
* haven't lost a single pound
* still drink Coke almost everyday
* still haven't generated ROI
* have tried reading El Zahir but wasn't successful
* traveled outside the city limits
* was too lazy to go be hands on with the business (esp. because I have to deal with them)
* am still struggling with my Spanish tenses
* rekindled my want for Lucky and Teen Vogue magazines
* am addicted to the net more than ever, esp. now that there's Facebook

However, in the past year I also...
* started this new business and it is starting to do good
* made the decision to be happy
* read more books than the year before that
* have discovered Gossip Girl
* met a cousin for the first time
* read about the secret

In the next year, I am hoping to...
* be more hardworking
* lose 30 lbs.
* make both businesses make LOTS of money, gimme my ROI!
* reconnect with friends I haven't seen for a long time
* travel to Thailand
* go on a scholarship to Spain (Salamanca, here I come!)
* speak impeccable Spanish
* visit my other cousins living abroad
* read a book every week
* find better employees (skills and personality-wise)
* complete the Harry Potter, Gossip Girl, It Girl and Shopaholic books series ( I know, all are ditzy books)
* see the Eiffel Tower
* be able to drive
* "accept myself, forgive myself, and get back up whenever I fall down," as quoted from Rozanne Paxman

The new year brings me hope since I often view the new year as a start, a clean slate. I often see the new year as an opportunity to start something. But the new year also makes me anxious... since I'd be a year older and would have to face real responsibilities (even if not now, eventually... yikes!)

I just wish that this year will be THE YEAR for me. I wish myself prosperity and all the good things in life! Of course, the same wish goes to everyone important in my life.

Happy New Year!